[there's a soft smile in her voice as she speaks up again, even if it's still a bit sheepish]

... you're very kind to be reassuring me in a situation like this.

But I want to look after you all so badly, and I am not managing it well enough. So allow me to say sorry for that, at least.

I won't freak out - but I don't like to be idle. I can't drink with all of you like this, so I can at least try to see if I can identify the malfunction in my own ridiculous dorm.