[ yamato wakes up with a gasp, which is maybe bad when he finds himself still in the gas chamber. his ears twitch again as he looks around at the others passed out and he looks down at the knife, the voice echoing in his head.
the first part-- worrying about himself-- it doesn't matter. if he is trapped, if he dies here... he doesn't want to, he's never wanted that, but if he can save someone else in the process, isn't it fine? maybe that voice is right and the others would move on eventually after his loss. maybe it wouldn't take long at all, even. ... but he knows that's not true, and his hand shakes around the knife as he tries to cling to the truth he knows and not remember-- a dark cave, his own feelings pulling him down into an abyss. there's only one of him in this world. there's things only he can do.
like, right now-- more important things. there's no point in sitting there crying.
he doesn't know if he can trust the voice, and so because of that and to make you all suffer one more round he'll first try to shake them awake, one at a time ]
Wake up. Wake up, this isn't real! You're not really there! Guys!
[ also maybe it doesn't have to be stabbing, and he'll punch lalli's arm when it's his turn to see if that works at all because drowning by evil zombie animal seems like the most pressing of the three ]
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the first part-- worrying about himself-- it doesn't matter. if he is trapped, if he dies here... he doesn't want to, he's never wanted that, but if he can save someone else in the process, isn't it fine? maybe that voice is right and the others would move on eventually after his loss. maybe it wouldn't take long at all, even. ... but he knows that's not true, and his hand shakes around the knife as he tries to cling to the truth he knows and not remember-- a dark cave, his own feelings pulling him down into an abyss. there's only one of him in this world. there's things only he can do.
like, right now-- more important things. there's no point in sitting there crying.
he doesn't know if he can trust the voice, and so because of that and to make you all suffer one more round he'll first try to shake them awake, one at a time ]
Wake up. Wake up, this isn't real! You're not really there! Guys!
[ also maybe it doesn't have to be stabbing, and he'll punch lalli's arm when it's his turn to see if that works at all because drowning by evil zombie animal seems like the most pressing of the three ]