[Stop that. He and Yamato are the same person, so he isn't going to let that get away.]
Don't you think your friends would be more reassured if they knew you felt the same way they did? Sora always acted like he never had any problems. Like he could just... [He sounds a little frustrated here.] ...follow his heart, no matter what came up.
And then he wants to tell me when we're sitting at the edge of oblivion that he's got his share of problems? Where? Why didn't he ever tell me! I'm his friend. I didn't even have the chance to try to help him.
[Ignoring all of the times he was just an asshole, so why would Sora say anything to him? Listen.]
I kind of figured that they'd know I feel the way they do. Maybe that's part of the problem? [...he doesn't reply for a moment, seemingly taking those words into account.]
You...do realize you're the one who tried to ditch him and Kairi, and I quote "didn't want to be found" because of problems you were having, right?
...It isn't the same. [It doesn't sound like he's trying to argue this too hard.] I... couldn't face them because of how I looked. I really was sure I'd be stuck that way.
For a little while Yamato thought I was dead, and we didn't even get to really talk about that because we ended up here. I think we're both on the same page here.
I think... Sora gets it a little now. And... I get him a little now, too. Right before I came, when we were sitting at the edge of all the darkness on the shore... we talked.
I don't know yet... since... we really had just accepted being stuck there together. But...
[He looks like he isn't sure how to explain it.]
It felt better. It felt like... the weight on my heart was gone. So I think it helped. For us to tell each other how we really felt. To know he wasn't mad at me. And... for me to say sorry.
I have a hard time believing he would've ever been mad at you in the first place, you know. You two sound too important to each other to stay seriously mad, or at least for very long. But I think that's a good thing.
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Yamato and I only really worked things out after he saw something I couldn't bring myself to say. [memshare.] But after that it was a little easier. Just be patient with Sora. I'm sure he knows and he's just trying to figure out how to say what he's thinking.
[His sigh is quiet and resigned in the way that says he knows he's going to have to meet Sora halfway. They won't have to start over necessarily, but... start again. Together.]
Hard to imagine Sora not knowing how to say what he's thinking. I was always jealous of how he could just... listen to his heart and be himself. He'd always know what to say, or where to go.
Both. At least, it seemed that way to me. It never mattered what was going on. A broken stick for our raft, a hole in the boat, ants on our food, dealing with darkness, fighting Ansem... he'd always just...
[He can't explain it the way he's seen it.] You could be trapped at the ends of the universe in the thickest darkness you've ever seen, and Sora would just... [He gestures with one hand.]
...show up out of nowhere like nothing was wrong, yelling your name, telling you it's going to be okay.
...all you can do is keep reaching out to him and waiting until he tells you his problems on his own. I know that's a shitty answer, but that's the only advice I really have about that sort of thing.
...do you remember what you said to me right before I switched into this dorm? About everybody being a little weird, but they're not bad people. Just that they think they are? Have you ever considered that applies to you, too?
He does not turn to look at Taichi. The only budging he does is, very suddenly, grabbing one of the pillows and swinging around to exasperatedly smash it once over the top of Taichi's head.]
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[Stop that. He and Yamato are the same person, so he isn't going to let that get away.]
Don't you think your friends would be more reassured if they knew you felt the same way they did? Sora always acted like he never had any problems. Like he could just... [He sounds a little frustrated here.] ...follow his heart, no matter what came up.
And then he wants to tell me when we're sitting at the edge of oblivion that he's got his share of problems? Where? Why didn't he ever tell me! I'm his friend. I didn't even have the chance to try to help him.
[Ignoring all of the times he was just an asshole, so why would Sora say anything to him? Listen.]
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You...do realize you're the one who tried to ditch him and Kairi, and I quote "didn't want to be found" because of problems you were having, right?
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...It isn't the same. [It doesn't sound like he's trying to argue this too hard.] I... couldn't face them because of how I looked. I really was sure I'd be stuck that way.
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For a little while Yamato thought I was dead, and we didn't even get to really talk about that because we ended up here. I think we're both on the same page here.
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I think... Sora gets it a little now. And... I get him a little now, too. Right before I came, when we were sitting at the edge of all the darkness on the shore... we talked.
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...did it help, you think? Both of you.
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[He looks like he isn't sure how to explain it.]
It felt better. It felt like... the weight on my heart was gone. So I think it helped. For us to tell each other how we really felt. To know he wasn't mad at me. And... for me to say sorry.
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[...]
Yamato and I only really worked things out after he saw something I couldn't bring myself to say. [memshare.] But after that it was a little easier. Just be patient with Sora. I'm sure he knows and he's just trying to figure out how to say what he's thinking.
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Hard to imagine Sora not knowing how to say what he's thinking. I was always jealous of how he could just... listen to his heart and be himself. He'd always know what to say, or where to go.
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[just. wondering.]
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[He can't explain it the way he's seen it.] You could be trapped at the ends of the universe in the thickest darkness you've ever seen, and Sora would just... [He gestures with one hand.]
...show up out of nowhere like nothing was wrong, yelling your name, telling you it's going to be okay.
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...all you can do is keep reaching out to him and waiting until he tells you his problems on his own. I know that's a shitty answer, but that's the only advice I really have about that sort of thing.
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...I know. [A glance at Taichi.] Speaking from experience?
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Of course I am. [haha.] Are you surprised?
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[Don't haha.]
...But thanks. I guess it's easier to understand how Sora thinks by talking to someone who relates.
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...do you remember what you said to me right before I switched into this dorm? About everybody being a little weird, but they're not bad people. Just that they think they are? Have you ever considered that applies to you, too?
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He does not turn to look at Taichi. The only budging he does is, very suddenly, grabbing one of the pillows and swinging around to exasperatedly smash it once over the top of Taichi's head.]
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Hitting me does not make me any less right!