[there's a nod of understanding, and then he just. considers that for a moment. there are things he wants to ask and wants to say, but he settles on something else entirely.]
Hey, Viola. Why did you become a dorm head, exactly?
Hmm... that's a rather large question - well, at least to me.
[she'll waddle around as she thinks about it before settling on - ]
I love it when people are happy, and this seemed like a job that would best allow me to be able to create those conditions. I think that school can be a very nerve-wracking place, full of social pressures and fears, so... I thought if I could be in charge of a dorm, I could help create a home for people.
There are also things like being able to live on campus, having it look good on a resume - but if I'm to be honest with myself, it's more for the first reason.
[cute birb...taichi's kicking the ball between his feet idly, listening in a weirdly attentive manner before he nods.]
I don't think there's anything bad about that. Wanting people to be happy and safe. It's pretty admirable, actually. [it's something he can agree with, but at the same time he's starting to think he could agree with all of their reasons.] Is that why you went into political science, too?
[peacekeeping, maybe. and he did say he would ask her eventually.]
I wouldn't call it admirable - I think many people have similar thoughts, they might just be a little embarrassed to express it.
[people are so cute and she loves them.]
But I went into political science for many reasons. One of them would be to try to create better systems and situations for people, yes. I have many goals and ideals! This is simply the path I chose to make them come true.
Hm... Well, my family has a history in politics - so it's arguably a good foothold for me to already make change. But...
[she pauses, like she's wondering how much to say]
... Well, I'm someone who thinks in the long-term. I would rather create systems that will last a very long time that let people have the power to take care of themselves. Charity is good, and generosity is wonderful - but it doesn't fix long-lasting problems.
So I thought I could create things in political systems, and that would do more good than me trying to help everyone individually.
It's a temporarily solution to a long-standing issue. Like doing one good deed and thinking that'll be enough to fix a crisis. But it'll take a while to create those systems, won't it? Not everybody's that ambitious.
[it's more idle commentary than anything.]
That's something you would want if you win the dorm wars then? For that pocket universe. [a place to create systems from the ground up.]
Perhaps so - I don't mind being a little ambitious, so long as it's for the sake of others.
[but she hums thoughtfully at the question]
No... Not quite. I'm confident, but I don't think I could build a utopia. I still have more to learn. But if I were to have a pocket universe - there's a separate project I would like to try. I'm still building the idea in my head...
But it would be something like a sanctuary. A place where those without means - especially children - do not have to worry about going hungry, or not having a roof over their head. Maybe they can learn to read if they don't know how, or recover their strength if they're ill.
I still need to think about the specifics, and of course I'd negotiate with whoever else wins Dorm Wars with me... but that's my current blueprint.
[...it almost sounds too perfect which is immediately suspicious to him, but he doesn't say that. mostly because he gets it. that'd be nice, right? like a place where people could just get along, the worlds would be balanced, people could be safe and...things were okay.]
Thank you for sharing that with me. [he says it almost automatically, like it's sincere but also said because he doesn't quite know what else to say.] That's...that's still pretty ambitious.
[there's a bit of silence...]
Can I ask you something about the applications for this school? I don't know if you can tell me, but I just want to know something. About that wish when you graduate. [he also doesn't even wait before he asks.] Is that something we would have put in the application itself? Like...does the school ask you what kind of thing you would hope for when you apply?
One might wonder where I have the audacity, but when you see people suffering, don't you want to think of ways to help them? Or at least, that's what comes to mind for me... though I know I still have to be careful of just how grand my dreams get.
[but she can't say that she's surprised by that reaction either. when it comes to his question, she hums]
Well, I suppose you could put it into consideration in the application - but it's not binding. Luke's been in attendance at this school since he was small, so I hope he's not held to whatever he or his guardians put in his application when he could barely walk. But ultimately school is meant for people to learn and grow, so the wish will be decided upon graduation.
I'm tired of people getting hurt, so yeah. Of course I do. [immediately.] ...I've been told it's important to dream big though.
[that makes sense though. the dreams of a kindergartener are (probably) different than those of a sixteen year old. maybe. he doesn't know luke's life.]
That's why I want to take another look at my application. If something was put in there, I'd like a refresher on what I wrote. [especially since he's Aware of a few things he wants, but hm.] Is there some kind of like...I don't know, alumni thing that lists what kind of things people wished for and obtained?
Mm - dream big, stay grounded in reality, and do what you can to help people. At the very least, that's the sentiments I live by.
[but she seems thoughtful at the question]
Unfortunately not - wishes are a rather private matter, so we don't tend to know what people wish for unless they volunteer the information and even then it's not kept in official records. I wouldn't have access to anyone's application files either...
But you must have something you'd wish for, wouldn't you, Taichi?
[sometimes...you are told by a dying man that you are responsible for the grown up hope of the generation before you and that you need to build the future and dream big. sometimes those words fucking haunt you as you make confused dog noises at murder academy.
but viola's stance is easy enough to understand.]
Not bad sentiments. I know it was a lot to hope for, but I guess I just thought the school had to have some record in order to make sure the wishes came out the way they were supposed to.
[but also, hm.] There are maybe things I'd wish for. [there is more to that sentence, but he isn't sure how to voice it.] I'm just not sure which one I would choose.
she tilts a little bit in her curiosity - like a headtilt but it's the full body of the mascot sort of thing]
... would you like to talk about it? If only to have a springboard for your ideas. I understand what it's like to have a lot of things you'd like to accomplish.
[there's a very palpable kind of hesitance. it's also kind of unfair that she's a cute duck because it's hard to feel as uneasy.]
I don't know if it's worth it. We made the right decision so there isn't much of a point thinking about other options. But I guess...maybe I'm still not sure how to move forward.
That's right. We were the only ones who could do anything to make sure the Digital World and Earth weren't destroyed. [...] We finished our battle not long before we came here. Things are safe for now, but this probably isn't the end because something always comes up.
Yeah. It was the necessary one even if it wasn't entirely right. But we knew it was what needed to be done. There wasn't really another option.
And now that it's done...I'm here. We didn't even get time to--[it's frustrating. so he looks at his soccer ball instead.]
I don't regret it. Not really. But I don't know what the impact will be now. [it's basically like being removed from consequences and waiting for them to hit for months. bad! stressful!]
[those are very much words for it, and he shrugs again because he doesn't want to agree but he doesn't want to blow her off either while she's actually listening.]
...like I said. We were the only ones who could do it. I just kind of wish I knew what the point of being here was when all of that was going on. Does that make sense?
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Hey, Viola. Why did you become a dorm head, exactly?
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[she'll waddle around as she thinks about it before settling on - ]
I love it when people are happy, and this seemed like a job that would best allow me to be able to create those conditions. I think that school can be a very nerve-wracking place, full of social pressures and fears, so... I thought if I could be in charge of a dorm, I could help create a home for people.
There are also things like being able to live on campus, having it look good on a resume - but if I'm to be honest with myself, it's more for the first reason.
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I don't think there's anything bad about that. Wanting people to be happy and safe. It's pretty admirable, actually. [it's something he can agree with, but at the same time he's starting to think he could agree with all of their reasons.] Is that why you went into political science, too?
[peacekeeping, maybe. and he did say he would ask her eventually.]
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I wouldn't call it admirable - I think many people have similar thoughts, they might just be a little embarrassed to express it.
[people are so cute and she loves them.]
But I went into political science for many reasons. One of them would be to try to create better systems and situations for people, yes. I have many goals and ideals! This is simply the path I chose to make them come true.
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[goals and ideals, huh. he seems to think that over. ]
Goals aren't bad either. But how'd you decide that was the path you wanted to take for it instead of some other path?
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[she pauses, like she's wondering how much to say]
... Well, I'm someone who thinks in the long-term. I would rather create systems that will last a very long time that let people have the power to take care of themselves. Charity is good, and generosity is wonderful - but it doesn't fix long-lasting problems.
So I thought I could create things in political systems, and that would do more good than me trying to help everyone individually.
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[it's more idle commentary than anything.]
That's something you would want if you win the dorm wars then? For that pocket universe. [a place to create systems from the ground up.]
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Perhaps so - I don't mind being a little ambitious, so long as it's for the sake of others.
[but she hums thoughtfully at the question]
No... Not quite. I'm confident, but I don't think I could build a utopia. I still have more to learn. But if I were to have a pocket universe - there's a separate project I would like to try. I'm still building the idea in my head...
But it would be something like a sanctuary. A place where those without means - especially children - do not have to worry about going hungry, or not having a roof over their head. Maybe they can learn to read if they don't know how, or recover their strength if they're ill.
I still need to think about the specifics, and of course I'd negotiate with whoever else wins Dorm Wars with me... but that's my current blueprint.
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Thank you for sharing that with me. [he says it almost automatically, like it's sincere but also said because he doesn't quite know what else to say.] That's...that's still pretty ambitious.
[there's a bit of silence...]
Can I ask you something about the applications for this school? I don't know if you can tell me, but I just want to know something. About that wish when you graduate. [he also doesn't even wait before he asks.] Is that something we would have put in the application itself? Like...does the school ask you what kind of thing you would hope for when you apply?
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One might wonder where I have the audacity, but when you see people suffering, don't you want to think of ways to help them? Or at least, that's what comes to mind for me... though I know I still have to be careful of just how grand my dreams get.
[but she can't say that she's surprised by that reaction either. when it comes to his question, she hums]
Well, I suppose you could put it into consideration in the application - but it's not binding. Luke's been in attendance at this school since he was small, so I hope he's not held to whatever he or his guardians put in his application when he could barely walk. But ultimately school is meant for people to learn and grow, so the wish will be decided upon graduation.
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[that makes sense though. the dreams of a kindergartener are (probably) different than those of a sixteen year old. maybe. he doesn't know luke's life.]
That's why I want to take another look at my application. If something was put in there, I'd like a refresher on what I wrote. [especially since he's Aware of a few things he wants, but hm.] Is there some kind of like...I don't know, alumni thing that lists what kind of things people wished for and obtained?
[proof that the wish system works.]
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[but she seems thoughtful at the question]
Unfortunately not - wishes are a rather private matter, so we don't tend to know what people wish for unless they volunteer the information and even then it's not kept in official records. I wouldn't have access to anyone's application files either...
But you must have something you'd wish for, wouldn't you, Taichi?
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but viola's stance is easy enough to understand.]
Not bad sentiments. I know it was a lot to hope for, but I guess I just thought the school had to have some record in order to make sure the wishes came out the way they were supposed to.
[but also, hm.] There are maybe things I'd wish for. [there is more to that sentence, but he isn't sure how to voice it.] I'm just not sure which one I would choose.
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she tilts a little bit in her curiosity - like a headtilt but it's the full body of the mascot sort of thing]
... would you like to talk about it? If only to have a springboard for your ideas. I understand what it's like to have a lot of things you'd like to accomplish.
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I don't know if it's worth it. We made the right decision so there isn't much of a point thinking about other options. But I guess...maybe I'm still not sure how to move forward.
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Was there something that was your responsibility back home?
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[clearly that's more than she was expecting]
The two worlds that you and your partner both come from? Is that correct?
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May I ask what decision you made, in order to make sure that the worlds weren't destroyed?
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Not a very easy one. Or one that everyone agreed was morally right. But it was what we had to do.
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... it must have been a hard decision to make. You consider it the right one - but it seems like it's still a little hard for you to swallow...
Is that right?
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And now that it's done...I'm here. We didn't even get time to--[it's frustrating. so he looks at his soccer ball instead.]
I don't regret it. Not really. But I don't know what the impact will be now. [it's basically like being removed from consequences and waiting for them to hit for months. bad! stressful!]
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[she's quiet for a moment]
I'm sorry, Taichi. I hadn't realized the scope of what you had on your shoulders - thank you for telling me.
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...like I said. We were the only ones who could do it. I just kind of wish I knew what the point of being here was when all of that was going on. Does that make sense?
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