It's a temporarily solution to a long-standing issue. Like doing one good deed and thinking that'll be enough to fix a crisis. But it'll take a while to create those systems, won't it? Not everybody's that ambitious.
[it's more idle commentary than anything.]
That's something you would want if you win the dorm wars then? For that pocket universe. [a place to create systems from the ground up.]
Perhaps so - I don't mind being a little ambitious, so long as it's for the sake of others.
[but she hums thoughtfully at the question]
No... Not quite. I'm confident, but I don't think I could build a utopia. I still have more to learn. But if I were to have a pocket universe - there's a separate project I would like to try. I'm still building the idea in my head...
But it would be something like a sanctuary. A place where those without means - especially children - do not have to worry about going hungry, or not having a roof over their head. Maybe they can learn to read if they don't know how, or recover their strength if they're ill.
I still need to think about the specifics, and of course I'd negotiate with whoever else wins Dorm Wars with me... but that's my current blueprint.
[...it almost sounds too perfect which is immediately suspicious to him, but he doesn't say that. mostly because he gets it. that'd be nice, right? like a place where people could just get along, the worlds would be balanced, people could be safe and...things were okay.]
Thank you for sharing that with me. [he says it almost automatically, like it's sincere but also said because he doesn't quite know what else to say.] That's...that's still pretty ambitious.
[there's a bit of silence...]
Can I ask you something about the applications for this school? I don't know if you can tell me, but I just want to know something. About that wish when you graduate. [he also doesn't even wait before he asks.] Is that something we would have put in the application itself? Like...does the school ask you what kind of thing you would hope for when you apply?
One might wonder where I have the audacity, but when you see people suffering, don't you want to think of ways to help them? Or at least, that's what comes to mind for me... though I know I still have to be careful of just how grand my dreams get.
[but she can't say that she's surprised by that reaction either. when it comes to his question, she hums]
Well, I suppose you could put it into consideration in the application - but it's not binding. Luke's been in attendance at this school since he was small, so I hope he's not held to whatever he or his guardians put in his application when he could barely walk. But ultimately school is meant for people to learn and grow, so the wish will be decided upon graduation.
I'm tired of people getting hurt, so yeah. Of course I do. [immediately.] ...I've been told it's important to dream big though.
[that makes sense though. the dreams of a kindergartener are (probably) different than those of a sixteen year old. maybe. he doesn't know luke's life.]
That's why I want to take another look at my application. If something was put in there, I'd like a refresher on what I wrote. [especially since he's Aware of a few things he wants, but hm.] Is there some kind of like...I don't know, alumni thing that lists what kind of things people wished for and obtained?
Mm - dream big, stay grounded in reality, and do what you can to help people. At the very least, that's the sentiments I live by.
[but she seems thoughtful at the question]
Unfortunately not - wishes are a rather private matter, so we don't tend to know what people wish for unless they volunteer the information and even then it's not kept in official records. I wouldn't have access to anyone's application files either...
But you must have something you'd wish for, wouldn't you, Taichi?
[sometimes...you are told by a dying man that you are responsible for the grown up hope of the generation before you and that you need to build the future and dream big. sometimes those words fucking haunt you as you make confused dog noises at murder academy.
but viola's stance is easy enough to understand.]
Not bad sentiments. I know it was a lot to hope for, but I guess I just thought the school had to have some record in order to make sure the wishes came out the way they were supposed to.
[but also, hm.] There are maybe things I'd wish for. [there is more to that sentence, but he isn't sure how to voice it.] I'm just not sure which one I would choose.
she tilts a little bit in her curiosity - like a headtilt but it's the full body of the mascot sort of thing]
... would you like to talk about it? If only to have a springboard for your ideas. I understand what it's like to have a lot of things you'd like to accomplish.
[there's a very palpable kind of hesitance. it's also kind of unfair that she's a cute duck because it's hard to feel as uneasy.]
I don't know if it's worth it. We made the right decision so there isn't much of a point thinking about other options. But I guess...maybe I'm still not sure how to move forward.
That's right. We were the only ones who could do anything to make sure the Digital World and Earth weren't destroyed. [...] We finished our battle not long before we came here. Things are safe for now, but this probably isn't the end because something always comes up.
Yeah. It was the necessary one even if it wasn't entirely right. But we knew it was what needed to be done. There wasn't really another option.
And now that it's done...I'm here. We didn't even get time to--[it's frustrating. so he looks at his soccer ball instead.]
I don't regret it. Not really. But I don't know what the impact will be now. [it's basically like being removed from consequences and waiting for them to hit for months. bad! stressful!]
[those are very much words for it, and he shrugs again because he doesn't want to agree but he doesn't want to blow her off either while she's actually listening.]
...like I said. We were the only ones who could do it. I just kind of wish I knew what the point of being here was when all of that was going on. Does that make sense?
[she hums thoughtfully herself, like she's trying to consider her words]
But... well - I don't know if we'll be able to get your applications any time soon. I know you've been requesting them, but when one door remains closed, that simply means we ought to look for other openings. If we search enough, with this many curious minds and creative thinkers, I think that we'd be able to find something.
So while I understand the search for information, we might need to start looking at something else. I've been trying to learn more about Kaoruko's thinking since - well, frustration about being delayed is one thing and I don't mean to discount it, but taking the lives of students is another... but thus far everyone said that she was very difficult to talk to.
[it's a very diplomatic and thorough answer, he thinks. it's an answer he can appreciate but at the same time it says a lot and nothing at all all at once.
not that that's viola's fault, so in the end there's a somewhat tight smile that still conveys some gratitude.]
Yeah...other doors are still an option. [and then, more to the point:] Everyone I've talked to that spoke to her said the same thing. Closed off, probably gave everybody different answers and not giving much information at all. But Maya thinks it might've been because she was afraid to say anything.
I suppose... if the given answer is unacceptable, the only assumption then is that there is another answer that she could not give for whatever reason. Fear could be one...
...I know it's not like you guys know more than we do, so I appreciate you listening. But hopefully this'll be the end of it. [it will not, and he does not believe that. nevertheless...]
Thanks for meeting me out here, Viola. I'm sure you've got a lot of stuff to do, and I think I do, too. Figure out more doors, you know?
I hope you're right. [and he'll even nod politely and gesture for her to go ahead...in case...she wobbles too hard and falls. it's fine. goodbye mods.]
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[it's more idle commentary than anything.]
That's something you would want if you win the dorm wars then? For that pocket universe. [a place to create systems from the ground up.]
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Perhaps so - I don't mind being a little ambitious, so long as it's for the sake of others.
[but she hums thoughtfully at the question]
No... Not quite. I'm confident, but I don't think I could build a utopia. I still have more to learn. But if I were to have a pocket universe - there's a separate project I would like to try. I'm still building the idea in my head...
But it would be something like a sanctuary. A place where those without means - especially children - do not have to worry about going hungry, or not having a roof over their head. Maybe they can learn to read if they don't know how, or recover their strength if they're ill.
I still need to think about the specifics, and of course I'd negotiate with whoever else wins Dorm Wars with me... but that's my current blueprint.
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Thank you for sharing that with me. [he says it almost automatically, like it's sincere but also said because he doesn't quite know what else to say.] That's...that's still pretty ambitious.
[there's a bit of silence...]
Can I ask you something about the applications for this school? I don't know if you can tell me, but I just want to know something. About that wish when you graduate. [he also doesn't even wait before he asks.] Is that something we would have put in the application itself? Like...does the school ask you what kind of thing you would hope for when you apply?
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One might wonder where I have the audacity, but when you see people suffering, don't you want to think of ways to help them? Or at least, that's what comes to mind for me... though I know I still have to be careful of just how grand my dreams get.
[but she can't say that she's surprised by that reaction either. when it comes to his question, she hums]
Well, I suppose you could put it into consideration in the application - but it's not binding. Luke's been in attendance at this school since he was small, so I hope he's not held to whatever he or his guardians put in his application when he could barely walk. But ultimately school is meant for people to learn and grow, so the wish will be decided upon graduation.
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[that makes sense though. the dreams of a kindergartener are (probably) different than those of a sixteen year old. maybe. he doesn't know luke's life.]
That's why I want to take another look at my application. If something was put in there, I'd like a refresher on what I wrote. [especially since he's Aware of a few things he wants, but hm.] Is there some kind of like...I don't know, alumni thing that lists what kind of things people wished for and obtained?
[proof that the wish system works.]
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[but she seems thoughtful at the question]
Unfortunately not - wishes are a rather private matter, so we don't tend to know what people wish for unless they volunteer the information and even then it's not kept in official records. I wouldn't have access to anyone's application files either...
But you must have something you'd wish for, wouldn't you, Taichi?
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but viola's stance is easy enough to understand.]
Not bad sentiments. I know it was a lot to hope for, but I guess I just thought the school had to have some record in order to make sure the wishes came out the way they were supposed to.
[but also, hm.] There are maybe things I'd wish for. [there is more to that sentence, but he isn't sure how to voice it.] I'm just not sure which one I would choose.
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she tilts a little bit in her curiosity - like a headtilt but it's the full body of the mascot sort of thing]
... would you like to talk about it? If only to have a springboard for your ideas. I understand what it's like to have a lot of things you'd like to accomplish.
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I don't know if it's worth it. We made the right decision so there isn't much of a point thinking about other options. But I guess...maybe I'm still not sure how to move forward.
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Was there something that was your responsibility back home?
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[clearly that's more than she was expecting]
The two worlds that you and your partner both come from? Is that correct?
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May I ask what decision you made, in order to make sure that the worlds weren't destroyed?
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Not a very easy one. Or one that everyone agreed was morally right. But it was what we had to do.
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... it must have been a hard decision to make. You consider it the right one - but it seems like it's still a little hard for you to swallow...
Is that right?
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And now that it's done...I'm here. We didn't even get time to--[it's frustrating. so he looks at his soccer ball instead.]
I don't regret it. Not really. But I don't know what the impact will be now. [it's basically like being removed from consequences and waiting for them to hit for months. bad! stressful!]
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[she's quiet for a moment]
I'm sorry, Taichi. I hadn't realized the scope of what you had on your shoulders - thank you for telling me.
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...like I said. We were the only ones who could do it. I just kind of wish I knew what the point of being here was when all of that was going on. Does that make sense?
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[she hums thoughtfully herself, like she's trying to consider her words]
But... well - I don't know if we'll be able to get your applications any time soon. I know you've been requesting them, but when one door remains closed, that simply means we ought to look for other openings. If we search enough, with this many curious minds and creative thinkers, I think that we'd be able to find something.
So while I understand the search for information, we might need to start looking at something else. I've been trying to learn more about Kaoruko's thinking since - well, frustration about being delayed is one thing and I don't mean to discount it, but taking the lives of students is another... but thus far everyone said that she was very difficult to talk to.
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not that that's viola's fault, so in the end there's a somewhat tight smile that still conveys some gratitude.]
Yeah...other doors are still an option. [and then, more to the point:] Everyone I've talked to that spoke to her said the same thing. Closed off, probably gave everybody different answers and not giving much information at all. But Maya thinks it might've been because she was afraid to say anything.
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[she parrots the word, tone thoughtful]
I suppose... if the given answer is unacceptable, the only assumption then is that there is another answer that she could not give for whatever reason. Fear could be one...
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Thanks for meeting me out here, Viola. I'm sure you've got a lot of stuff to do, and I think I do, too. Figure out more doors, you know?
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Then let us depart for now and reconvene later. Hopefully we'll discover a few more of those openings shortly.
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