It was because I spent a long time fearing the darkness inside me.
The wrong people had convinced me to give into the darkness to be stronger and to do the wrong things. They poisoned me, and one possessed me. He tried to use me to hurt my friends.
But she showed me you can have a heart with both light and darkness. That's okay.
If you're afraid, it makes the darkness worse. You have to accept the darkness in your heart.
And then you'll be able to control it to use it for the right things. For good things, not bad ones. That's what I plan to do if I can get back to Sora and get us out of the darkness.
I'm going to practice mastering the darkness in my heart.
I use to think that was true, too. But it isn't. Darkness makes you stronger. As long as your heart still wants to protect the things that matter, you can use the strength to do that.
Fear, greed, anger, and jealousy take away your control over the darkness. Mastering isn't easy. But I'm willing to try.
Maybe not to you. But I have been that way in times past. I have had a world's wealth of evil in me. So I do not know that our situations can be compared, or if all darkness can be tamed.
I haven't exactly been a model of goodness either. You saw some of it.
I think you get to a point where you don't want to be controlled anymore. People telling you it's bad, you're wrong, you're evil. Other people telling you that there's nothing wrong with it, it'll make you stronger.
The light and the darkness. You don't have to just walk one path. You can walk the path between them. That's what I decided to do. To walk the path toward the dawn.
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[ u can be a furry if you like, riku ]
Then may I ask you what that memory was about, instead?
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Zexion was using my shortcomings against me. But then Naminé helped me by pretending to be Kairi.
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The wrong people had convinced me to give into the darkness to be stronger and to do the wrong things. They poisoned me, and one possessed me. He tried to use me to hurt my friends.
But she showed me you can have a heart with both light and darkness. That's okay.
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But how can it be? How can one be a good person with such shadows in their heart?
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If you're afraid, it makes the darkness worse. You have to accept the darkness in your heart.
And then you'll be able to control it to use it for the right things. For good things, not bad ones. That's what I plan to do if I can get back to Sora and get us out of the darkness.
I'm going to practice mastering the darkness in my heart.
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Though I suppose you have a point. Fear must only make it worse.
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I use to think that was true, too. But it isn't. Darkness makes you stronger. As long as your heart still wants to protect the things that matter, you can use the strength to do that.
Fear, greed, anger, and jealousy take away your control over the darkness. Mastering isn't easy. But I'm willing to try.
So I can protect my friends.
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Your friends... a noble venture.
I admit I fear losing myself if I tried to do the same.
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I think you'd be okay. Sometimes, you might mess up, or make a mistake.
But I think you could do it. I don't think it's impossible.
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[ he's never been very nice to riku, honestly? ]
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And you haven't been that way to me.
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Maybe not to you. But I have been that way in times past. I have had a world's wealth of evil in me. So I do not know that our situations can be compared, or if all darkness can be tamed.
It is a hopeful notion, though.
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I think you get to a point where you don't want to be controlled anymore. People telling you it's bad, you're wrong, you're evil. Other people telling you that there's nothing wrong with it, it'll make you stronger.
The light and the darkness. You don't have to just walk one path. You can walk the path between them. That's what I decided to do. To walk the path toward the dawn.