What if I only have two and I'm very worried I'm about to be completely brainfucked again tomorrow morning and I might never have the chance to be intimate with anyone ever again? Does it help or hurt that I'm losing my mind a little bit. No one has ever said they liked me before though I never was a teenager so I think this is what it must feel like. It's bonkers. I don't recommend it.
For worse or for better? I suppose if you can't say more that's pushing it.
.... I'm not a good person to talk to about this. I think I've made a very big mess of my own this week. But if I were to think about it - there's nothing quite like the rush of the first time you give some of your heart to someone. I hope that you enjoy it. (Also less romantic but I can't do anything with 2 Vouchers.)
Not that I'm qualified for advice on matters of the heart, considering my lack of experience, but you know that it isn't really your fault for the mess? I suppose I only know what I've seen and I don't have any special insight, but I've been rejected plenty of times. Some people take it more elegantly than others, but I don't think you should be made to feel badly about it.
I don't know shit about what happened, that's a large part of my charm. But I was in attendance at a party that was rather public and ever since then a teen boy has been wandering around with a rather sad dog face on.
He and Crow are both trying to court me, despite my attempts to dissuade them for weeks. Because I am very, very bad at this. Exhibit A, and all that. He took the news a bit poorly, now that I can actually mention the daycare with a bit more detail. I'm sorry I just needed to tell someone, I thought about putting my head underwater and not getting back up a few times already. And you're a very easy person to talk to, Mollymauk. There's a Welcome to Winter joke here somewhere.
You can tell me things, I'm pretty good at listening. It's the lack of memories. Lots of storage space in there. And the nothing behind the eyes deal, makes me a good sounding board.
The thing about men sometimes - and as someone with little regard for gender on the whole, I have a good outside perspective on this - is that they are exceptionally stupid. Especially around beautiful and charming people. It's not an excuse, just sometimes the idea of a hint goes in one ear and out the other when they're looking at a pretty face.
For what it's worth, I think you're far from bad at it. It's just bad circumstances? There's rather a lot going on at the moment.
I'll put a vacuum cleaner outside Suite One if you're really determined. ♥
Men are SO stupid but I love my Winters so much, Mollymauk - yourself included now of course. I don't even know what to do when people are now separating me and Ichiro like we're misbehaving toddlers.
But no my track record is horrific. Perhaps not the extent of Annie's - but it's not grand.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Have fun but not too much. I'm happy you're happy.
[molly can borrow a vacuum cleaner that'll eventually disappear to manually cleaner up glitter but he will inevitably miss spots. use the bang boudoir at your own peril.]
I'd give him a few days to lick his wounds and people will move past it. I don't think anyone here knows the best trick to healing is to not pick at the scab, but they'll figure it out.
Are you actually interested in either of these stubborn suitors?
I don't know. I swore a while ago that I'd never fall in love again - which sounds dramatic but... ... sometimes they make it seem like it wouldn't be so bad. I don't think a month and a half is enough for me to change my mind, though.
[her plan once all of this was over was to just emotionally ghost until they ended up with other people? she thought it was pretty good]
Doesn't sound dramatic. Most of the time just seems more mess than necessary. Like I said, I've got no experience with the strong stuff. Never cared about it.
Then someone comes out of nowhere saying things in their ridiculous accent like but you are worth it and then stabbing you with broken glass between the ribs and at that point you're fucked six ways to Sydenstar.
Suppose the lesson is shit happens a bit out of our control sometimes. 'Course I've never been much of one for trying to control myself either.
Got to say it's actually nice, almost, hearing you talk about it in the sense that there's going to be more time after this.
[Womance... honestly it's a scary conversation for her - her hands are shaking as she types from her room, but.
maybe being able to talk about it at all, instead of sliding right past it, is progress for her.]
We talked about this near the beginning, didn't we? How I admire the idea of being able to do only what I want and not what I must - Maybe I'll tuck that idea away for the future. A life like yours sounds more fulfilling.
... The strong stuff is scary, I think. It can unmake a person. Leave scars that you think might never heal. But I wonder if maybe if it's with the right person, as you've found, the wounds might never come.
I don't know - I'm a little hard to love. But they promise me things like "I want to see your home" and "If I have time after this, I want to spend it with you." Nonsense, Mollymauk, absolute nonsense. ... I used to love romance stories. But I'm afraid I'm also a person who needs to see it to believe it.
[Is it the right person? The only thing he's been promised and promised in return is a someday, maybe soon, I could burn it all down. That's what she means though, when she says the strong stuff is scary.]
We did. We keep circling back to it.
Of course it's nonsense. But I don't know that I'm the person to warn anyone off of shying from scars or being unmade. I'm a new person every time I'm brave enough look, you know? I'm not the same Mollymauk I was before I died the first time, before I came here. I'm not even really the same one that I was before I woke up on the other side, head all empty again.
So, maybe today you're a person who needs to see it. Maybe sometime you wake up and decide believing in a little nonsense seems like fun. Take your time.
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For worse or for better? I suppose if you can't say more that's pushing it.
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But if I were to think about it - there's nothing quite like the rush of the first time you give some of your heart to someone.
I hope that you enjoy it.
(Also less romantic but I can't do anything with 2 Vouchers.)
I think patience might be your friend here.
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Not that I'm qualified for advice on matters of the heart, considering my lack of experience, but you know that it isn't really your fault for the mess? I suppose I only know what I've seen and I don't have any special insight, but I've been rejected plenty of times. Some people take it more elegantly than others, but I don't think you should be made to feel badly about it.
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Because of the polymorph.
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He and Crow are both trying to court me, despite my attempts to dissuade them for weeks.
Because I am very, very bad at this. Exhibit A, and all that.
He took the news a bit poorly, now that I can actually mention the daycare with a bit more detail.
I'm sorry I just needed to tell someone, I thought about putting my head underwater and not getting back up a few times already.
And you're a very easy person to talk to, Mollymauk.
There's a Welcome to Winter joke here somewhere.
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You can tell me things, I'm pretty good at listening. It's the lack of memories. Lots of storage space in there. And the nothing behind the eyes deal, makes me a good sounding board.
The thing about men sometimes - and as someone with little regard for gender on the whole, I have a good outside perspective on this - is that they are exceptionally stupid. Especially around beautiful and charming people. It's not an excuse, just sometimes the idea of a hint goes in one ear and out the other when they're looking at a pretty face.
For what it's worth, I think you're far from bad at it. It's just bad circumstances? There's rather a lot going on at the moment.
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Men are SO stupid but I love my Winters so much, Mollymauk - yourself included now of course.
I don't even know what to do when people are now separating me and Ichiro like we're misbehaving toddlers.
But no my track record is horrific.
Perhaps not the extent of Annie's - but it's not grand.
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Stupid thing.
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Have fun but not too much.
I'm happy you're happy.
[molly can borrow a vacuum cleaner that'll eventually disappear to manually cleaner up glitter but he will inevitably miss spots. use the bang boudoir at your own peril.]
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Anyway.
I'd give him a few days to lick his wounds and people will move past it. I don't think anyone here knows the best trick to healing is to not pick at the scab, but they'll figure it out.
Are you actually interested in either of these stubborn suitors?
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I swore a while ago that I'd never fall in love again - which sounds dramatic but...
... sometimes they make it seem like it wouldn't be so bad.
I don't think a month and a half is enough for me to change my mind, though.
[her plan once all of this was over was to just emotionally ghost until they ended up with other people? she thought it was pretty good]
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Doesn't sound dramatic.
Most of the time just seems more mess than necessary. Like I said, I've got no experience with the strong stuff. Never cared about it.
Then someone comes out of nowhere saying things in their ridiculous accent like but you are worth it and then stabbing you with broken glass between the ribs and at that point you're fucked six ways to Sydenstar.
Suppose the lesson is shit happens a bit out of our control sometimes. 'Course I've never been much of one for trying to control myself either.
Got to say it's actually nice, almost, hearing you talk about it in the sense that there's going to be more time after this.
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maybe being able to talk about it at all, instead of sliding right past it, is progress for her.]
We talked about this near the beginning, didn't we?
How I admire the idea of being able to do only what I want and not what I must -
Maybe I'll tuck that idea away for the future. A life like yours sounds more fulfilling.
... The strong stuff is scary, I think. It can unmake a person. Leave scars that you think might never heal.
But I wonder if maybe if it's with the right person, as you've found, the wounds might never come.
I don't know - I'm a little hard to love.
But they promise me things like "I want to see your home" and "If I have time after this, I want to spend it with you."
Nonsense, Mollymauk, absolute nonsense.
... I used to love romance stories.
But I'm afraid I'm also a person who needs to see it to believe it.
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We did. We keep circling back to it.
Of course it's nonsense. But I don't know that I'm the person to warn anyone off of shying from scars or being unmade. I'm a new person every time I'm brave enough look, you know? I'm not the same Mollymauk I was before I died the first time, before I came here. I'm not even really the same one that I was before I woke up on the other side, head all empty again.
So, maybe today you're a person who needs to see it. Maybe sometime you wake up and decide believing in a little nonsense seems like fun. Take your time.
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Talking to you truly is a comfort.
... we'll see. I've promised to try many different things lately.
So I guess we'll see where those attempts take me.
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And for what it's worth, I would be very pleased to spend some time with you after all of this.
Thank you for the welcome to Winter Dorm.
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And my time is always yours, whenever you'd like it.
Welcome home, Mollymauk. 💙