Oh, I see. [ . . . she brings a hand up to her face then, resting her cheek on it as if rueful for her own expressiveness.] No. I'm sorry. I was watching everything and...
You're right. I was distressed. Surprised, confused, but mostly scared.
It wasn't because I thought he was caught red-handed - it was because he suddenly became the most suspicious person, immediately after Denji was cleared. I never thought it would be him. And I've never - ... I don't take to loss well, which I know is a very selfish thing to say after the past few weeks.
... but he never told me anything. I wish he had. I would be of more use to you today if he did.
it's probably funny how she also raises her hand, reaches out, pulls back, looks sheepish over what she just did, and then just. offers her hand out more consciously, palm up. there.]
No... I'd never apologize for that. I'm only sorry I can't help more. I love my Dorm shamelessly, but I also recognize that Rupert did something grave.
[ . . . ]
I just wish I knew why. I think that all of us can agree that was... perhaps the most unexpected.
But if the reasons are not selfish or dastardly... what could be left? I've attempted to do my own theorizing but... I haven't been able to think of anything particularly promising with the information we have.
I tried to run some ideas past him, to see what he would say. . .
[He rubs his jaw.]
He talked a little about knowing the risk of execution, which made me think it isn't pure compulsion, but a decision he made. We just don't have any insight yet on the reasons, but it must have been compelling. I felt he heavily implied something like a threat to his partner would not have been sufficient for this.
[ . . . hmmmm. she tilts her head and lets her cheek rest on her free hand.]
So not a hostage situation, and not a pure compulsion without regard for his own well-being. But something that clearly still motivated him to act and take the risk of expulsion.
But similarly, not a selfish reason because when the promise of the degree exists, there's no major reason to kill for personal gain.
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You're right. I was distressed. Surprised, confused, but mostly scared.
It wasn't because I thought he was caught red-handed - it was because he suddenly became the most suspicious person, immediately after Denji was cleared. I never thought it would be him. And I've never - ... I don't take to loss well, which I know is a very selfish thing to say after the past few weeks.
... but he never told me anything. I wish he had. I would be of more use to you today if he did.
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[It's touch week, still, but he also remembers a few awkward moments between them, so he sort of reaches to take her hand and then doesn't.]
I misunderstood, then. I'd wondered if you'd known and couldn't say, but he did buy from Chad rather than you. . .
I'm sorry. There's nothing to apologize for in caring for him.
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it's probably funny how she also raises her hand, reaches out, pulls back, looks sheepish over what she just did, and then just. offers her hand out more consciously, palm up. there.]
No... I'd never apologize for that. I'm only sorry I can't help more. I love my Dorm shamelessly, but I also recognize that Rupert did something grave.
[ . . . ]
I just wish I knew why. I think that all of us can agree that was... perhaps the most unexpected.
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He is a good person, I feel sure of that. He may have done something grave, but that does not mean it is a sorry thing to see him in danger.
Did you have the chance to speak with him at all after? I don't know how it works.
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I did... The Dorm invited me to see him with them - but I also wanted to see him privately.
He wasn't able to tell me anything... Even before expulsion, and even to me when I cannot share private student information...
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I agree.
But if the reasons are not selfish or dastardly... what could be left? I've attempted to do my own theorizing but... I haven't been able to think of anything particularly promising with the information we have.
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[He rubs his jaw.]
He talked a little about knowing the risk of execution, which made me think it isn't pure compulsion, but a decision he made. We just don't have any insight yet on the reasons, but it must have been compelling. I felt he heavily implied something like a threat to his partner would not have been sufficient for this.
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So not a hostage situation, and not a pure compulsion without regard for his own well-being. But something that clearly still motivated him to act and take the risk of expulsion.
But similarly, not a selfish reason because when the promise of the degree exists, there's no major reason to kill for personal gain.
It leaves a bit of a narrow road....