about entrance exams? not really. I don't really know where I'll go or what I'll do yet, so it's hard to be nervous about taking an exam. and there's been bigger things on my mind lately.
I've never worried about passing them before. The class I failed was tougher than I thought. I felt pathetic because I was struggling while everyone else seemed to do fine.
Then I started thinking maybe I was just stupid. What happens if I couldn't do it?
it's hard when everyone around you seems to have it so much easier with something you're trying really hard at and failing. I struggled with that for a while. I kept comparing myself to other people. I wanted to be better than I was, but I didn't know how. but a friend of mine told me different people have different strengths, and there are things only I can do no one else can.
seems obvious when put like that, but at the time, it felt like a revelation. so, maybe this is stuff you already know. I'll say it anyway.
you're not stupid for struggling. even if it ends up that's something you can't do, that's alright. there's only one of you in the world. you have your own strengths and weaknesses, and other people will still want you around despite all that.
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probably not. I don't think she has those in her world. thanks.
oh. he talked about that? yeah. I've got a band back home. Knife of Day. buy our merch! (I'm kidding.) I play bass + sing. I only have my harmonica here, though.
drums are cool. finding a good drummer is important. you should try it out sometime.
if I ever find a copy of our singles, I'll send it your way. you can judge for yourself. but we're really good. no bias.
being in a band is great. it was a dream of mine when I was little, and I decided to just go ahead and try about four years ago? something like that. we were called teenage wolves then.
you could join the wiwaldi edition. I'm not much of a band by myself here. it wouldn't be the first time I made a temporary band, too. for the school festival we called it "world on the knife".
always be representing. easier to sell KoD if I can segue into it with the name. don't tell anyone else, though.
for real, it's because half my band was in the festival one. so it's still the band but more worldly? my brother thought it sounded cool when I told him.
I can play sports for fun. I just don't like sports clubs. if the options are cheerleader and playing baseball, I'll pick baseball, though. I'd be a terrible cheerleader.
that's right. you have swordsmanship in your school ID. I don't mind learning, but I don't know what I'd do with fencing. it's the one with the super flimsy swords, right?
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just "The World"?
about entrance exams? not really. I don't really know where I'll go or what I'll do yet, so it's hard to be nervous about taking an exam. and there's been bigger things on my mind lately.
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I don't have anything planned yet either. But I'm worried I won't pass. What's on your mind if it isn't the exams?
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it's over now, so it's fine.
but for a while it was just one thing after another. it's hard to explain.
I've never really been worried about passing classes anyway.
as long as I do the work, usually it's enough.
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I've never worried about passing them before. The class I failed was tougher than I thought. I felt pathetic because I was struggling while everyone else seemed to do fine.
Then I started thinking maybe I was just stupid. What happens if I couldn't do it?
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I struggled with that for a while. I kept comparing myself to other people.
I wanted to be better than I was, but I didn't know how.
but a friend of mine told me different people have different strengths, and there are things only I can do no one else can.
seems obvious when put like that, but at the time, it felt like a revelation. so, maybe this is stuff you already know. I'll say it anyway.
you're not stupid for struggling. even if it ends up that's something you can't do, that's alright.
there's only one of you in the world. you have your own strengths and weaknesses, and other people will still want you around despite all that.
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sorry, maybe I'm answering this too seriously.
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It's okay. Even if it sounds kind of sappy, your friend's right. I think I needed to hear it from someone who understands.
Thanks, Yamato.
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no problem.
oh, the penguin.
beau said you sent it to her?
the files for it, I guess.
can I have it too?
it's cute.
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Sure. Here. He's pretty cool.
[yamato gets a file attachment for stickers.]
This you? Ichiro said you were into music.
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thanks.
oh. he talked about that?
yeah. I've got a band back home.
Knife of Day. buy our merch!
(I'm kidding.)
I play bass + sing.
I only have my harmonica here, though.
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Depends on if your band sounds as cool as its name. I might.
Do you like it? Being in a band.
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if I ever find a copy of our singles, I'll send it your way. you can judge for yourself. but we're really good.
no bias.
being in a band is great. it was a dream of mine when I was little, and I decided to just go ahead and try about
four years ago?
something like that.
we were called teenage wolves then.
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Lol. Teenage wolves? Really?
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yeah.
I was sort of inspired by this old movie my dad owned?
"I Was A Teenage Werewolf"
my best friend is a wolf and I was 13. I felt pretty clever.
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we've got a new sound now. I think it's better.
coincidentally, the only person I kept on was the drummer.
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Guess I won't be joining your band then.
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you could join the wiwaldi edition. I'm not much of a band by myself here.
it wouldn't be the first time I made a temporary band, too.
for the school festival we called it "world on the knife".
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Should I be worried you seem to like knives?
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always be representing.
easier to sell KoD if I can segue into it with the name.
don't tell anyone else, though.
for real, it's because half my band was in the festival one.
so it's still the band but more worldly?
my brother thought it sounded cool when I told him.
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Lol. The name sounds cool. Even if your knife liking is a little worrying.
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dorm head life must be hard.
don't worry, I'd never use a knife in a fight.
that's what swords and guns are for.
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That isn't even counting the mess of everyone saying they didn't apply.
Stop. If you like swords, you can join the fencing club.
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no thanks. I've never joined a sports club and I don't intend to start now.
anyway, swords are more taichi's thing.
okay, wait, thinking about some of the people here, let me specify.
neither of us actually know how to use one, this is a joke.
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Sports aren't so bad. Does that mean you aren't going to play baseball with me and Caiman? Guess you'll have to be a Fall Dorm cheerleader.
If you ever wanted to learn how to fence, I could teach you.
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if the options are cheerleader and playing baseball, I'll pick baseball, though.
I'd be a terrible cheerleader.
that's right. you have swordsmanship in your school ID.
I don't mind learning, but I don't know what I'd do with fencing.
it's the one with the super flimsy swords, right?
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