[she can, but she won't breathe it out loud if kainé doesn't want her to.]
From what I could tell, Kaoruko and Rupert... they haven't told anyone what motivated them - and if it were something that they could admit, I don't understand why they wouldn't warn others. You're telling me and I understand if you don't broadcast what happened to you given the dangers of it but...
They were already facing expulsion, and would not have much to lose.
So... my presumption is the motivations are different - and what happened is different. It's not good news... but it is why I don't think that your situation and Rupert's are the same. I don't know if we can assume you will act again.
I did think about telling some others. The more people who know, the more can be figured out.
[ The only thing holding her back (because she isn't afraid of facing death) is Nier. When she doesn't know if he'll exist out of this place, leaving him is much harder to do. ]
If what happened to them and what happened to me is different, I should.
[ It affects more than just her, and she is more than used to people hating her and wanting her dead.
At the end of the day, even if all she knows is how to kill, she does want to be able to save people. The reason she tried to frame Denji was because she knew he could be saved if he weren't also a murderer (and because she didn't want Nier to face the idea of losing her so easily even if she also knew it would point at her). ]
Be careful. It has its benefits but it also has its risks - to you in particular. Even if it's only that compulsion is involved to some degree in murder, that information can be circulated without your name being attached to it.
I think information is powerful but in this case, it's risky... I don't think you need to pay the cost. Not this way.
Don't you think they'll figure it out even if I don't come out and say I killed?
[ She had zero votes this time, but once she says she knows the reasoning behind at least one kill, it won't be hard to pin it down. At least, she doesn't think it would be hard to follow the trail back to her. ]
... but the person you told does, don't they? And they seem like a kind person who others might trust with this information. Even if it's gradual, or if he ended up telling you.
[she tilts her head. strategizing isn't her forte, but she does seem the importance in the information. she just doesn't know if she sees the importance enough to put kainé in danger]
It's risky, given the amount of attention on our Dorm as is - but it can be measured carefully depending on who you tell to begin with. Murdering due to compulsion is already a popular theory....
[ah.... even with permission - it's hard. she opens her mouth to try to find the words, and then falters, but ultimately the only way it can happen is when her expression shatters just a bit.]
I don't want to lose you.
[her fingers curl into the fabric of her skirts, clutching onto something, anything, in some search of a lifeline]
I didn't want to lose Rupert either, even knowing what he'd done, and knowing people would feel better about themselves than if they convicted an innocent. But I don't want to lose anyone. It's selfish, after what other dorms have been through - but I can't stand it.
But Denji, Kon, Dimitri, Catra - we keep brushing so close every week.
And... because Winter has felt like home to me more than any other place in my life and -
I want you to stay because I want you here, and because I think it'd feel less like home to all of us if you were gone suddenly too.
[ Kainé is stunned. Viola knows of her murder and still wants her to stay, and it's hard to believe.
She is too awkward to reach for Viola's hands because Kainé is still scared. Murdering Sieghart wasn't all her own will, but that doesn't erase everything else she's done before coming here.
It would be a lie to say she doesn't want to stay, but can she allow herself to? ]
[ . . . . oh. she breathes out at that, so relieved. kainé doesn't reach out for viola's hands but - she ends up reaching out herself, letting her fingertips brush just lightly against the back of kainé's hand.]
.... I'm so glad.
We'll figure this out, Kainé - I promise. Just... please don't go.
[ She doesn't take a step back or wrench her hands away, so it's a step. Even if it's touch week, some compulsions sting after a whole weekend of them.
She doesn't think she can promise anything right now. ]
[ . . . . she seems thoughtful about it. she thinks about the way that they all reached out to rupert, even when he didn't offer them any information.]
... I think you'd be surprised.
It remains a risk and as I've said, I don't like to speak in certainties about things I'm not sure of - but I have a strong inclination that... you're more treasured than you realize.
[ She would be surprised if all of them still accepted her after. She can't deny that. There's nothing that unpredictable about any of her surface reactions. ]
I guess I'll have to see.
[ If someone from Winter will select enough of the correct dialogue options to make her want to confess and then she'll see just how accepted she is after that. ]
... Can people buy hints for murders outside of trial?
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[ She's certain Viola can connect the dots. It's not like she's hidden how important Nier is to her. ]
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From what I could tell, Kaoruko and Rupert... they haven't told anyone what motivated them - and if it were something that they could admit, I don't understand why they wouldn't warn others. You're telling me and I understand if you don't broadcast what happened to you given the dangers of it but...
They were already facing expulsion, and would not have much to lose.
So... my presumption is the motivations are different - and what happened is different. It's not good news... but it is why I don't think that your situation and Rupert's are the same. I don't know if we can assume you will act again.
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I did think about telling some others. The more people who know, the more can be figured out.
[ The only thing holding her back (because she isn't afraid of facing death) is Nier. When she doesn't know if he'll exist out of this place, leaving him is much harder to do. ]
If what happened to them and what happened to me is different, I should.
[ It affects more than just her, and she is more than used to people hating her and wanting her dead.
At the end of the day, even if all she knows is how to kill, she does want to be able to save people. The reason she tried to frame Denji was because she knew he could be saved if he weren't also a murderer (and because she didn't want Nier to face the idea of losing her so easily even if she also knew it would point at her). ]
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Be careful. It has its benefits but it also has its risks - to you in particular. Even if it's only that compulsion is involved to some degree in murder, that information can be circulated without your name being attached to it.
I think information is powerful but in this case, it's risky... I don't think you need to pay the cost. Not this way.
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[ She had zero votes this time, but once she says she knows the reasoning behind at least one kill, it won't be hard to pin it down. At least, she doesn't think it would be hard to follow the trail back to her. ]
I don't talk to many people.
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... but the person you told does, don't they? And they seem like a kind person who others might trust with this information. Even if it's gradual, or if he ended up telling you.
[she tilts her head. strategizing isn't her forte, but she does seem the importance in the information. she just doesn't know if she sees the importance enough to put kainé in danger]
It's risky, given the amount of attention on our Dorm as is - but it can be measured carefully depending on who you tell to begin with. Murdering due to compulsion is already a popular theory....
It can simply stand to be confirmed.
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[ It would be easy to point at Nier. She has already put so much on his plate, though.
... ]
I don't know why you'd want me to stay still.
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Am I allowed to answer selfishly?
[it feels like something where she has to ask for permission]
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[ She doesn't need Viola's official dorm head answer or whatever other kind of answer she would want to give.
She'd understand, but it'd have less effect on her. ]
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I don't want to lose you.
[her fingers curl into the fabric of her skirts, clutching onto something, anything, in some search of a lifeline]
I didn't want to lose Rupert either, even knowing what he'd done, and knowing people would feel better about themselves than if they convicted an innocent. But I don't want to lose anyone. It's selfish, after what other dorms have been through - but I can't stand it.
But Denji, Kon, Dimitri, Catra - we keep brushing so close every week.
And... because Winter has felt like home to me more than any other place in my life and -
I want you to stay because I want you here, and because I think it'd feel less like home to all of us if you were gone suddenly too.
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She is too awkward to reach for Viola's hands because Kainé is still scared. Murdering Sieghart wasn't all her own will, but that doesn't erase everything else she's done before coming here.
It would be a lie to say she doesn't want to stay, but can she allow herself to? ]
Not wanting to lose anyone is normal.
[ If it's selfish, they're all selfish. ]
Fuck anyone who says otherwise.
[ ... ]
I'll stay.
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.... I'm so glad.
We'll figure this out, Kainé - I promise. Just... please don't go.
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She doesn't think she can promise anything right now. ]
If I leave, it will be because others want it.
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[her expression softens then]
Everyone wants you in Winter just as much as I do. I'm more than sure of that.
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[ She is still so full of doubt.
Every person is different. Every situation is different, and she's not Rupert. She doesn't reach out with kindness the way that Rupert did. ]
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... I think you'd be surprised.
It remains a risk and as I've said, I don't like to speak in certainties about things I'm not sure of - but I have a strong inclination that... you're more treasured than you realize.
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I guess I'll have to see.
[ If someone from Winter will select enough of the correct dialogue options to make her want to confess and then she'll see just how accepted she is after that. ]
... Can people buy hints for murders outside of trial?
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but regardless she looks thoughtful about it before shaking her head]
No... I'm afraid not. [ . . . ] But you can look into ways to narrow down suspect pools during trial, perhaps.