[ah.... even with permission - it's hard. she opens her mouth to try to find the words, and then falters, but ultimately the only way it can happen is when her expression shatters just a bit.]
I don't want to lose you.
[her fingers curl into the fabric of her skirts, clutching onto something, anything, in some search of a lifeline]
I didn't want to lose Rupert either, even knowing what he'd done, and knowing people would feel better about themselves than if they convicted an innocent. But I don't want to lose anyone. It's selfish, after what other dorms have been through - but I can't stand it.
But Denji, Kon, Dimitri, Catra - we keep brushing so close every week.
And... because Winter has felt like home to me more than any other place in my life and -
I want you to stay because I want you here, and because I think it'd feel less like home to all of us if you were gone suddenly too.
[ Kainé is stunned. Viola knows of her murder and still wants her to stay, and it's hard to believe.
She is too awkward to reach for Viola's hands because Kainé is still scared. Murdering Sieghart wasn't all her own will, but that doesn't erase everything else she's done before coming here.
It would be a lie to say she doesn't want to stay, but can she allow herself to? ]
[ . . . . oh. she breathes out at that, so relieved. kainé doesn't reach out for viola's hands but - she ends up reaching out herself, letting her fingertips brush just lightly against the back of kainé's hand.]
.... I'm so glad.
We'll figure this out, Kainé - I promise. Just... please don't go.
[ She doesn't take a step back or wrench her hands away, so it's a step. Even if it's touch week, some compulsions sting after a whole weekend of them.
She doesn't think she can promise anything right now. ]
[ . . . . she seems thoughtful about it. she thinks about the way that they all reached out to rupert, even when he didn't offer them any information.]
... I think you'd be surprised.
It remains a risk and as I've said, I don't like to speak in certainties about things I'm not sure of - but I have a strong inclination that... you're more treasured than you realize.
[ She would be surprised if all of them still accepted her after. She can't deny that. There's nothing that unpredictable about any of her surface reactions. ]
I guess I'll have to see.
[ If someone from Winter will select enough of the correct dialogue options to make her want to confess and then she'll see just how accepted she is after that. ]
... Can people buy hints for murders outside of trial?
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[ It would be easy to point at Nier. She has already put so much on his plate, though.
... ]
I don't know why you'd want me to stay still.
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Am I allowed to answer selfishly?
[it feels like something where she has to ask for permission]
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[ She doesn't need Viola's official dorm head answer or whatever other kind of answer she would want to give.
She'd understand, but it'd have less effect on her. ]
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I don't want to lose you.
[her fingers curl into the fabric of her skirts, clutching onto something, anything, in some search of a lifeline]
I didn't want to lose Rupert either, even knowing what he'd done, and knowing people would feel better about themselves than if they convicted an innocent. But I don't want to lose anyone. It's selfish, after what other dorms have been through - but I can't stand it.
But Denji, Kon, Dimitri, Catra - we keep brushing so close every week.
And... because Winter has felt like home to me more than any other place in my life and -
I want you to stay because I want you here, and because I think it'd feel less like home to all of us if you were gone suddenly too.
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She is too awkward to reach for Viola's hands because Kainé is still scared. Murdering Sieghart wasn't all her own will, but that doesn't erase everything else she's done before coming here.
It would be a lie to say she doesn't want to stay, but can she allow herself to? ]
Not wanting to lose anyone is normal.
[ If it's selfish, they're all selfish. ]
Fuck anyone who says otherwise.
[ ... ]
I'll stay.
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.... I'm so glad.
We'll figure this out, Kainé - I promise. Just... please don't go.
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She doesn't think she can promise anything right now. ]
If I leave, it will be because others want it.
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[her expression softens then]
Everyone wants you in Winter just as much as I do. I'm more than sure of that.
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[ She is still so full of doubt.
Every person is different. Every situation is different, and she's not Rupert. She doesn't reach out with kindness the way that Rupert did. ]
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... I think you'd be surprised.
It remains a risk and as I've said, I don't like to speak in certainties about things I'm not sure of - but I have a strong inclination that... you're more treasured than you realize.
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I guess I'll have to see.
[ If someone from Winter will select enough of the correct dialogue options to make her want to confess and then she'll see just how accepted she is after that. ]
... Can people buy hints for murders outside of trial?
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but regardless she looks thoughtful about it before shaking her head]
No... I'm afraid not. [ . . . ] But you can look into ways to narrow down suspect pools during trial, perhaps.