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[No one should understand Amatsuki deep lore tbh.]

It's not. I mean. That part isn't. But then when the came, I tried to fight them, and got badly injured. Byakuroku died because he had to protect me from them.

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[...

that seems to strike a chord with him, as he's quiet for a bit.]

... Chances are, his decisions aren't your fault either.

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But I-I didn't want him to die? I never asked for something like that! Why would I be happy with him dying for me!?

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You don't have to be happy. If you want to grieve, you should grieve. [...] Just that it's probably not something you should blame yourself for. I doubt he would've been happy with that either.

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[He shakes his head.]

Of course not. But sometimes I want to be mad at him instead of sad. For leaving me. Bon too. My brother. After he told me not to leave him he went and did it himself.

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... Being mad is understandable, too.

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Have you... do you know what it's like?

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[there is a long silence, because hugo tends to be extremely private, but it seems a little too mean to be like "fuck you, none of your business" at a guy who's about to die, so.]

... A little, yes.

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Is that why you don't want to get close to anyone else?

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Not in particular. It was a relatively recent incident, in any case.

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But then if you already didn't want to get close to people how did you lose someone like that?

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We were related. Didn't exactly have a choice but to be born into a life with him.

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Ah.
[Nods in understanding.]

So you didn't get along?

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... Well, that's putting it strongly, as much of a pain as he was.

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I mean that's normal for brothers, isn't it?