[It's not a personal thing, at least. If anything, it's what he wears the most openly - his vengeance, his hatred for demons.]
It is, yes. [He's no hero or even vigilante, no matter what others have said. He'd do this even if those demons never harmed another hair on anyone else's head.] To allow the souls of my family to rest at ease and ensure this never happens to anyone else.
[His head dips a little, and his gaze falls to the cup before him on the table. It's a nice thing to say - many of the people here are kind, for better or for worse. But...]
...Thank you, Viola. Peace for myself has never been my aim, though. I would simply share theirs, once I achieve it.
[And then die and take the eternal peaceful dirt nap, god bless.]
[we'll never find out how this sentence ends bc it's memshare time
You’ve lived your life in solitude. You work hard everyday, spend late nights at the office at the accounting firm, and you don’t interact with others. Your relationships have faded into the background, and most of your days, you only have enough time and energy for a game. The relationships that unfold on the screen are beautiful and loving, even if they are not yours. You think that there’s probably more to life, but you don’t have the wherewithal to find it. Maybe one day your life will end up finding you, and there will be something better than this.
Or maybe it’ll end suddenly - and begin again so intensely that it’s dizzying.
“You” - the 28-year old accountant from modern day Japan, a recluse who lacked friends but made up for it with familiarity in otome games. (Did that really make up for anything?)
Iris - the 16-year old disgraced daughter of the Duke of Armelia, desperate to escape her future of being locked in a nunnery after her fall from grace.
This is your judgment.
You watch the love of your life (because that’s what he was, wasn’t he?) condemn you in favor of another girl he met just months ago. You watch your brother, your blood relative, insinuate that you are anything but weak and for once this is not a compliment. You feel yourself held down for subjugation by a young man three times stronger than you, lambasted for asserting your engagement over a girl who was stealing everything from you.
How ready they are to label you the villainess in this story.
You maintain your dignity - you walk away on your own two feet, if only because you know that no one else will come to save you.
You realize in this moment that there is nothing sweet about love - not when it can destroy a person so immediately. To place hope on something as fleeting, as incorporeal and impossible as love will only lead to ruin.
Maybe that’s what “you” and Iris have always had in common -
[THIS IS LITERALLY MEMORY INCEPTION AND HE'S LOSING HIS MIND. Understandably, it takes longer than usual to shake his way out of this memory considering it's two memories from a person who already has two lives. Wow, he hates this for her, personally?
At the very least, he understands enough of everything that happened to get a base picture of what went on there. And he even has firsthand knowledge of and experience with isekais! Though he's not familiar with the "you die to get there" trope... Yikes.
He's quick to fix her with a stare after all of that though, considering he's seen SOME PEOPLE have some very averse reactions to their memories suddenly returning. That's what he focuses on first, rather than trying to parse through the tangle of memory and the heavy emotions that came with it.]
[PROBABLY. Her head's gonna explode and look even worse than Molly's at this rate.
He does not know what to do about this, though!! He's had bad headaches but they're possession headaches and then "yelling at my evil sword who yells back real loud" headaches, not "I'm three people in a trenchcoat" headaches...]
[Sakyou has only taken one pain killer in his life and it was baby aspirin because Manwol made him, he is trying so desperately to get rid of these pain killers.]
If you're certain. Is there anything else that I can do?
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You... needn't tell me if the question is too personal but - is this why you choose to eradicate monsters in your home?
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It is, yes. [He's no hero or even vigilante, no matter what others have said. He'd do this even if those demons never harmed another hair on anyone else's head.] To allow the souls of my family to rest at ease and ensure this never happens to anyone else.
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It's hard for me to say that I understand... but I hope that you're able to find peace at some point, Sakyou.
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...Thank you, Viola. Peace for myself has never been my aim, though. I would simply share theirs, once I achieve it.
[And then die and take the eternal peaceful dirt nap, god bless.]
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[we'll never find out how this sentence ends bc it's memshare time
You’ve lived your life in solitude. You work hard everyday, spend late nights at the office at the accounting firm, and you don’t interact with others. Your relationships have faded into the background, and most of your days, you only have enough time and energy for a game. The relationships that unfold on the screen are beautiful and loving, even if they are not yours. You think that there’s probably more to life, but you don’t have the wherewithal to find it. Maybe one day your life will end up finding you, and there will be something better than this.
Or maybe it’ll end suddenly - and begin again so intensely that it’s dizzying.
”So I will not apologize, I will not allow you people to rob me of anything further.”
Two consciousnesses exist in this body now.
“You” - the 28-year old accountant from modern day Japan, a recluse who lacked friends but made up for it with familiarity in otome games. (Did that really make up for anything?)
Iris - the 16-year old disgraced daughter of the Duke of Armelia, desperate to escape her future of being locked in a nunnery after her fall from grace.
This is your judgment.
You watch the love of your life (because that’s what he was, wasn’t he?) condemn you in favor of another girl he met just months ago. You watch your brother, your blood relative, insinuate that you are anything but weak and for once this is not a compliment. You feel yourself held down for subjugation by a young man three times stronger than you, lambasted for asserting your engagement over a girl who was stealing everything from you.
How ready they are to label you the villainess in this story.
You maintain your dignity - you walk away on your own two feet, if only because you know that no one else will come to save you.
You realize in this moment that there is nothing sweet about love - not when it can destroy a person so immediately. To place hope on something as fleeting, as incorporeal and impossible as love will only lead to ruin.
Maybe that’s what “you” and Iris have always had in common -
No one ever really loved you anyway. ]
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At the very least, he understands enough of everything that happened to get a base picture of what went on there. And he even has firsthand knowledge of and experience with isekais! Though he's not familiar with the "you die to get there" trope... Yikes.
He's quick to fix her with a stare after all of that though, considering he's seen SOME PEOPLE have some very averse reactions to their memories suddenly returning. That's what he focuses on first, rather than trying to parse through the tangle of memory and the heavy emotions that came with it.]
—Your head - it doesn't hurt, does it?
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the funny thing is that her head does hurt, and she shuts her eyes in a rather pained wince.]
I.... No, I should be fine, it's just...
[she has no idea what that was?]
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Anyway! Sakyou is leaning forward a little, and though he's not reaching for her just yet, his hands are semi-raised like he's ready to if need be.]
...It's best not to think on it too much for now, I believe.
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but viola will just furrow her brow at that, reaching up to her aching head and frowning]
I... I suppose not...
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He does not know what to do about this, though!! He's had bad headaches but they're possession headaches and then "yelling at my evil sword who yells back real loud" headaches, not "I'm three people in a trenchcoat" headaches...]
--Would pain medication help?
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No, I... I should be alright. You should keep them for yourself and others - thank you, Sakyou.
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If you're certain. Is there anything else that I can do?
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No... I think it should be alright, thank you. Shall we take care to enjoy our tea?
[and wrap this thread and leave it in the past of last week]