POOR RIKU THOUGH THAT'S SO FUNNY. Thanks for taking the packet back without him having to be stubborn and aggressive about it... He feels a little soothed by that, which filters through all this nasty emotional grime. Then he takes a step back because he knows his vibes are rancid and he refuses to share them with people for long.
...Boy can he understand that, though.]
When one has little else to do, it's hard not to lash out in any way possible.
[Having all of those rancid feels get pulled away from their suffocation on his heart almost leaves him breathless. He hasn't felt those things in... a while.]
I shouldn't have. I didn't do anything but hurt myself.
[He pops the first pill in his mouth, then the second, and then swigs the drink to wash it down. Imagine if Riku couldn't swallow a pill like me.]
Sakyou's just giving him a concerned look. If this dumb binch broke his hand punching a wall and he finds out later he's going to bongo Riku's noggin until the stupid falls out.
But! Sakyou's of course more than willing to give what he can wherever he can. There's some curiosity - a little bit of worry, too, just because of the hesitation Riku's showing. Still, he nods.]
[Haha! Boys would do that? They would just punch a wall with their dominate sword hand and not get it broken?]
I...
[Distantly, Sakyou can feel him steel himself emotionally. His jaw goes sharp a minute, and he holds his head up, meets Sakyou's gaze.]
If... something happens to me. After what happened to us before, after... the talk about people being forced, after what Otome said yesterday... If something happens to me, I want you to promise you'll... stop me. For good.
[He's--worried. That Sakyou will say no, will ridicule, or worse, scold him. But the putrid feeling in Sakyou's heart, he thinks... he can ask this of Sakyou more than anyone.]
Hopefully not literally though! Riku will probably be able to pick up on an equally distant edge of surprise - something startled, and something unpleasant. But of course, Riku is correct in his assessment. Sakyou would not say no to a request like this, understanding the place that it's coming from. There's no way in hell he'd ever ridicule someone in such a position, and... while he dislikes it quite immensely, he won't scold. How could he, without being hypocritical? The only reason he isn't asking the same of Riku is because he doesn't know how much ability their dorm heads have to do such a thing. It seems they have less freedom in general, in many ways.
He's silent for a few moments, then, expression grim. But his answer is clear.]
...If such a thing were to happen to you and that is what you wish, then I will make this promise to you.
[Sometimes the best person to ask to put you out of your misery is someone else who would also want to be put down like Old Yeller... It's fine! It's fine.]
I can't say that I blame them, either. To refuse to make that sort of choice until the very last...
[There's a sort of strength in it, too. But he's grown up in a way that intimately knows how unfair and cruel the world often is, and he won't hesitate to make the painful decisions if it's what is necessary.
He hesitates for a second, but then reaches forward to take Riku's hand. THE BAD VIBES ARE BACK-- no it's fine, now they're just covered in a heavy blanket of grim resignation and melancholy. Well, actually, those are still bad vibes, just sad flavor instead of mad flavor.]
I will do what I can, so that you don't need to bear the weight of regrets you can't take back.
[He takes Sakyou by the hand, grip firm but not painful. The vibes are bad, licking at the bad vibes he's tried to shove far back into the pit of him.
A darkness is there Sakyou can feel. A churning, uncertain, but soft void nestled in what can only be Riku's heart. It's something greedy, but dormant until it unfurls against the sad bad vibes Sakyou gives off. Like it's familiar with them more than anything else.]
Sorry, but I've already got a lot of those.
[He lets go of Sakyou's hand. The pact has been sealed.]
[STOP VIBING WITH HIS BAD VIBES RIGHT THIS INSTANT RIKU RIKUSON HELLO.
Sakyou is quick to pull his hand away and reclaim his space, though. Not because he's frightened by that darkness, but because he doesn't want to be the one to pull it back out again. It's always such a strong fear of his. To stain, like an ink. To leave those around him worse off than they were before.
Still, his expression is soft, if not melancholic. There's definite understanding there, as loathe as he is to hold it.]
No further to add, then. [Softly. Then, after a beat of hesitation:] ...In your position, do you think that you would be able to do the same for me?
[NO, IT'S FINE. PULL IT BACK OUT HAHAHAHA. I'm kidding. The great thing about Riku is--he's immune to darkness. So his vibes come out to say hello to Sakyou, but don't seem pressed to soak anything up.
Lucky Sakyou.]
...
[He frowns, but doesn't back down.]
If you asked me. It wouldn't be right of me to ask you, but not let you have the same choice.
STOP GOODBYEING EVERYONE THOUGH DAMN anyway yeah he's trying to avoid that very much. Anyway, there's just a little flicker of a wry smile...]
I have no intentions of giving in.
[He's just also a pessimist who's recently remembered just what it's like to be under Muramasa's thrall, ie having no idea that something is Wrong in the first place.]
{WHAT DOES THISFJUOSAJF STOP i can't believe i had to deal with your goddamn shenanigans this morning at 8 AM and then i open this tag to even MORE. we are ruining this entire serious, sad thread with outside commentary]
Good. Then we have a deal. Let's hope it really never comes to that.
[See you in hell, Sakyou.]
There are people here who needs us. And people back home, too.
[YEAH!!! stop it's fine they can't read the brackets we'll be safe here.
Can't believe they're both going to different hells though, damn. Life really is homophobic. But it's fine; he just offers a bit of a smile that seems at least a little less thin and troubled than the few he's given over the last like four fuckin days have been.]
There are, and it would be remiss to let down those who are relying on us.
[This is literally just them staring each other down and trying to bully the other one into not doing stupid shit like giving into great evils to be stronger for their goals.
They're both slapping their hand on top of the other's hand and removing the bottom one to slap it again on top.
I'M LOSING IT]
Thanks for the medicine. Pick up some more so you'll have some.
[thinks about thursday and shoots lasers at you from my eyes]
[YEAH. YEAH THAT'S THEM THEY HAVE ONE BRAINCELL AND FOUR HANDS BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM AND THEY'RE GOING TO USE only their hands for slappy hands fights. It's fine.
Sakyou just laughs very lightly! And offers a tiny little smile.]
Think nothing of it. I'll be certain to do so... It's likely one other in our dorm will end up needing them this week, unfortunately.
[He's thinking about Rita but little does his foolass know...... It's fine though they're just fighting giant flowers.]
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POOR RIKU THOUGH THAT'S SO FUNNY. Thanks for taking the packet back without him having to be stubborn and aggressive about it... He feels a little soothed by that, which filters through all this nasty emotional grime. Then he takes a step back because he knows his vibes are rancid and he refuses to share them with people for long.
...Boy can he understand that, though.]
When one has little else to do, it's hard not to lash out in any way possible.
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I shouldn't have. I didn't do anything but hurt myself.
[He pops the first pill in his mouth, then the second, and then swigs the drink to wash it down. Imagine if Riku couldn't swallow a pill like me.]
...thanks.
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At the very least, though, Sakyou manages a thin smile at the thanks.]
It's the least I can do. [TRULY.] Have you had anyone look at it? Is it just bruised?
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It's fine. Just bruised.
[Haha.
He peers at Sakyou for a long moment before looking away, like he's debating. The distant edge of feeling is morose, but uncertain.]
Sakyou, I... have something I want to ask you. A favor.
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Sakyou's just giving him a concerned look. If this dumb binch broke his hand punching a wall and he finds out later he's going to bongo Riku's noggin until the stupid falls out.
But! Sakyou's of course more than willing to give what he can wherever he can. There's some curiosity - a little bit of worry, too, just because of the hesitation Riku's showing. Still, he nods.]
What is it?
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I...
[Distantly, Sakyou can feel him steel himself emotionally. His jaw goes sharp a minute, and he holds his head up, meets Sakyou's gaze.]
If... something happens to me. After what happened to us before, after... the talk about people being forced, after what Otome said yesterday... If something happens to me, I want you to promise you'll... stop me. For good.
[He's--worried. That Sakyou will say no, will ridicule, or worse, scold him. But the putrid feeling in Sakyou's heart, he thinks... he can ask this of Sakyou more than anyone.]
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Hopefully not literally though! Riku will probably be able to pick up on an equally distant edge of surprise - something startled, and something unpleasant. But of course, Riku is correct in his assessment. Sakyou would not say no to a request like this, understanding the place that it's coming from. There's no way in hell he'd ever ridicule someone in such a position, and... while he dislikes it quite immensely, he won't scold. How could he, without being hypocritical? The only reason he isn't asking the same of Riku is because he doesn't know how much ability their dorm heads have to do such a thing. It seems they have less freedom in general, in many ways.
He's silent for a few moments, then, expression grim. But his answer is clear.]
...If such a thing were to happen to you and that is what you wish, then I will make this promise to you.
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This isn't something he wants to put on Sakyou at all. But he isn't so far away from the fear of his heart yet he can shrug it off.]
Thanks. I'm sorry... to ask you to do it. I just... I can't ask my dorm... None of them would... well, you know how they are.
[They'd immediately jump to the WE'LL SAVE YOU route exactly like he would. Haha.
He holds out his good hand to Sakyou.]
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I can't say that I blame them, either. To refuse to make that sort of choice until the very last...
[There's a sort of strength in it, too. But he's grown up in a way that intimately knows how unfair and cruel the world often is, and he won't hesitate to make the painful decisions if it's what is necessary.
He hesitates for a second, but then reaches forward to take Riku's hand. THE BAD VIBES ARE BACK-- no it's fine, now they're just covered in a heavy blanket of grim resignation and melancholy. Well, actually, those are still bad vibes, just sad flavor instead of mad flavor.]
I will do what I can, so that you don't need to bear the weight of regrets you can't take back.
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A darkness is there Sakyou can feel. A churning, uncertain, but soft void nestled in what can only be Riku's heart. It's something greedy, but dormant until it unfurls against the sad bad vibes Sakyou gives off. Like it's familiar with them more than anything else.]
Sorry, but I've already got a lot of those.
[He lets go of Sakyou's hand. The pact has been sealed.]
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Sakyou is quick to pull his hand away and reclaim his space, though. Not because he's frightened by that darkness, but because he doesn't want to be the one to pull it back out again. It's always such a strong fear of his. To stain, like an ink. To leave those around him worse off than they were before.
Still, his expression is soft, if not melancholic. There's definite understanding there, as loathe as he is to hold it.]
No further to add, then. [Softly. Then, after a beat of hesitation:] ...In your position, do you think that you would be able to do the same for me?
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Lucky Sakyou.]
...
[He frowns, but doesn't back down.]
If you asked me. It wouldn't be right of me to ask you, but not let you have the same choice.
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In any case!! There's just a little smile, which is probably also just a little sad. The apologetic-leaning side of sad, anyway.]
...Then I may ask the same. Though I don't wish to leave it on your shoulders, I fear we might be in a similar situation.
[These dumb binches will just try to stop Muramasa. He loves them very much.]
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I accept. If it comes to that. But don't think you can just give in so easily thinking I'm going to take care of you.
[Some dumb bitches will absolutely try to stop Muramasa. (yaywon voice) THIS DEMON SWORD? :people_hugging:]
And don't think you can just give in if I turn out to be stronger than you think.
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STOP GOODBYEING EVERYONE THOUGH DAMN anyway yeah he's trying to avoid that very much. Anyway, there's just a little flicker of a wry smile...]
I have no intentions of giving in.
[He's just also a pessimist who's recently remembered just what it's like to be under Muramasa's thrall, ie having no idea that something is Wrong in the first place.]
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Good. Then we have a deal. Let's hope it really never comes to that.
[See you in hell, Sakyou.]
There are people here who needs us. And people back home, too.
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Can't believe they're both going to different hells though, damn. Life really is homophobic. But it's fine; he just offers a bit of a smile that seems at least a little less thin and troubled than the few he's given over the last like four fuckin days have been.]
There are, and it would be remiss to let down those who are relying on us.
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[This is literally just them staring each other down and trying to bully the other one into not doing stupid shit like giving into great evils to be stronger for their goals.
They're both slapping their hand on top of the other's hand and removing the bottom one to slap it again on top.
I'M LOSING IT]
Thanks for the medicine. Pick up some more so you'll have some.
[thinks about thursday and shoots lasers at you from my eyes]
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Sakyou just laughs very lightly! And offers a tiny little smile.]
Think nothing of it. I'll be certain to do so... It's likely one other in our dorm will end up needing them this week, unfortunately.
[He's thinking about Rita but little does his foolass know...... It's fine though they're just fighting giant flowers.]
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It's always good to be prepared, even for yourself.
[Why is he so fucking stubborn, and won't take no for an answer. THEIR VENN DIAGRAM CONVERGES HERE AT THIS POINT.]
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Well, I can't argue with that. You really do worry, though...
[THIS FROM SOMEONE ELSE WHO FUSSES NONSTOP.]