[ AUDIENCE: TAICHI YAGAMI ]

[dormheads]

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[goalsides]

[...hah.]

Good. As long as you can hold on to that, then...I can't worry as much, I guess. [he will worry forever it's fine.]

[darksubverted]

[Let him grap this tiny, tiny, tiny shred of almost hope and hold on and pray. Please.]

Nice try. But I know if you're anything like Sora, you're going to worry anyway. Just like... if Yamato is anything like me, he's already been worrying anyway, too.

[goalsides]

[there's a grin that kind of says riku is exactly right on both accounts.]

You and Yamato both worry too much in the first place, you know. [as opposed to taichi who only worries about certain things.]

[darksubverted]

[FOUR of them.......]

Some people have to worry to make up for the two people who don't.

[Pointed look at Taichi.]

[goalsides]

[he makes a face.]

I worry about stuff when I have to, but...I'm the one who's supposed to lead the team and keep everybody safe. If I worry too much, then it's worse.

[darksubverted]

[HE CAN'T HELP BUT STARE AT THIS.]

I'm just going to keep saying over and over that you sound exactly like Sora until you stop saying things that sound exactly like him.

[goalsides]

[welcome to my personal hell, yeah. anyway taichi doesn't entirely know what to say about that before he shrugs again.]

Sorry? I think? [HE'S NOT SURE IF HE SHOULD APOLOGIZE OR WHAT.]

[darksubverted]

[Yeah, you better apologize, asshole. Not that there needs to be an apology for anything.]

Don't be stupid. Just because you're the "leader" doesn't mean your friends are going to think everything is hopeless just because you're also worrying a little.

I'd appreciate it if Sora worried a little more actually. Then I'd know he was taking things more seriously than what it seems like at first. He could always just tell me if something is bothering him. Then I'd know for once... I'd need to help him.

[goalsides]

I dunno, Yamato's yelled at me a couple of times for not immediately jumping into stuff. He called it running away. [and before riku can say anything:] We're fine, we talked about it later. Things are better.

...if Sora and I are really as alike as you say we are, then it's probably because he thinks he can fix whatever's bothering him on his own. You guys have a lot going on, right? Why add extra worry when there's a bigger picture?

[...]

Not that it's the right answer, but I don't think it's about not wanting the help. More like not knowing if it's worth asking when the problem is something you can fix yourself if you try hard enough.

[darksubverted]

Well, he's stupid [clearly, they are talking about both the people here and their other, better halves] if he thinks he can do it on his own.

That's what I thought, too, and I was an idiot. So I know better than either of us that doing it on your own is just going to get you into trouble down the road. All Sora has to do is tell me.

I'd... drop whatever I was doing to make sure he was okay. Even if the world was ending... I'd put that aside for him.

[Maybe not entirely a GREAT idea, but his point is, his friend is so important to him.]

[goalsides]

[there's a snort, but he doesn't disagree.]

...I have the feeling he'd do the same for you. [mostly because he and yamato would, and have, put things aside for each other.] I don't know. I'm just saying there are some things that take a little longer to be okay with. You just have to keep being there for him, which kinda goes right back to all of us being here for you guys.

[darksubverted]

[He lets out a sharp, exasperated exhale.]

I could say the exact same for you all, you know. I don't think a lot of you tell us stuff because you're trying to keep us from worrying.

[goalsides]

[...a shrug.]

Considering how stressful things can be around our dorm, can you really blame any of them, Riku?

[darksubverted]

[.........looking fastly away.]

No... but we can't help you if you don't tell us anything about what's going on. I mean, some stuff we can sort of figure out, but...

[goalsides]

...in some cases it's stuff from home that gets tied into stuff from here. I can tell you that much, too.

[darksubverted]

[Frowning. He looked away fastly before, but now he's looking back because he's stupid.]

It's fine if it's stuff from home, too. I've already... unloaded on you, and Yamato, and others too. Like you guys really need my problems.

[goalsides]

The difference is we're asking about your problems. [hypocrite.] And before you say anything, nobody needs to know about my indecisiveness about stuff. That's not gonna help us.

[darksubverted]

Well, I'm asking for yours, too.

[Stop that. He and Yamato are the same person, so he isn't going to let that get away.]

Don't you think your friends would be more reassured if they knew you felt the same way they did? Sora always acted like he never had any problems. Like he could just... [He sounds a little frustrated here.] ...follow his heart, no matter what came up.

And then he wants to tell me when we're sitting at the edge of oblivion that he's got his share of problems? Where? Why didn't he ever tell me! I'm his friend. I didn't even have the chance to try to help him.

[Ignoring all of the times he was just an asshole, so why would Sora say anything to him? Listen.]

[goalsides]

I kind of figured that they'd know I feel the way they do. Maybe that's part of the problem? [...he doesn't reply for a moment, seemingly taking those words into account.]

You...do realize you're the one who tried to ditch him and Kairi, and I quote "didn't want to be found" because of problems you were having, right?

[darksubverted]

[He looks away so fast, wow. Haha.]

...It isn't the same. [It doesn't sound like he's trying to argue this too hard.] I... couldn't face them because of how I looked. I really was sure I'd be stuck that way.

[goalsides]

[...SIGH.]

For a little while Yamato thought I was dead, and we didn't even get to really talk about that because we ended up here. I think we're both on the same page here.

[darksubverted]

[Slowly, he glances back yet again.]

I think... Sora gets it a little now. And... I get him a little now, too. Right before I came, when we were sitting at the edge of all the darkness on the shore... we talked.

[goalsides]

[and then riku came here and had an au written about him. yikes.]

...did it help, you think? Both of you.

[darksubverted]

I don't know yet... since... we really had just accepted being stuck there together. But...

[He looks like he isn't sure how to explain it.]

It felt better. It felt like... the weight on my heart was gone. So I think it helped. For us to tell each other how we really felt. To know he wasn't mad at me. And... for me to say sorry.

[goalsides]

I have a hard time believing he would've ever been mad at you in the first place, you know. You two sound too important to each other to stay seriously mad, or at least for very long. But I think that's a good thing.

[...]

Yamato and I only really worked things out after he saw something I couldn't bring myself to say. [memshare.] But after that it was a little easier. Just be patient with Sora. I'm sure he knows and he's just trying to figure out how to say what he's thinking.