I have seen so much worse than rabid geese girlie don't worry about it
I guess I mean I don't really like being taught I like getting my hands into it on my own terms I never liked having a tutor because they always treated me like I'm stupid I'm not stupid
History can tell you a lot though. About people and places and how things are going to happen
Oh right the nearly bit in half and all that... Well, that's not as reassuring as you think either... Are you an adventurer of sorts? That sounds very dangerous.
Oh of course you're not stupid, tutors can just be some of the most condescending people. I'm glad you've escaped them.
But that's true - it's important to look at what's happened in the past in order to understand what's worked and doesn't work. I think what you're describing sounds like a very exciting way to learn. Do you think you'd like science experiments too if you like having a personal touch? Putting things together and seeing how they might change or explode (within a safe environment)?
Mercenary?! It sounds so gallant but - yes, that does sound dangerous. Do you enjoy what you do?
Perfect! Then how about when we get a chance to meet, we trade? I'd still like to learn to throw a punch if you're willing to teach. And I'll find some experiments we can do together - I'll make sure they're flashy and loud.
For the most part The company's good and the pay's pretty alright but mostly I do it for I guess for leaving things better than I found them much as I can
Haha yeah sure I'm still good to teach I'm already practicing there's a few people who wanted to learn this week Looking forward to it
Oh! That's a lovely sentiment. So you work for the common good? More people ought to do that. Are Caleb and Mollymauk your fellow mercenaries as well as your friends?
Oh, really? It seems that you're all taking care of your own curriculum. I love that! Please make use of the grounds as much as you'd like.
I've never met someone who's never made a mistake - But I meet fewer people who actively try to leave things better than they find it. So I think that does count for something very special. Are there indeed nine of you in the Mighty Nein?
Excellent!! Oh, I'd hate for your school days to be dull while you're here. Hopefully the Dorm Heads will be able to join you all soon so we can enjoy the company too.
You think you can crush me, Beauregard?! Even if I'm very excited that you're enjoying the Game Room, now I feel like my pride is on the line... You're on!
Yeah he sent them to me, it was dope I like him He seems like he's maybe a bit like Caleb where he's standoffish but really great once you get to know him
Hehe, I suppose that does make sense why they're in the same Dorm then. Luke is sweet - he's younger, but I think that he really does have a lot of wisdom for his age at times. Certainly more than I had then. Is Caleb standoffish? Thus far I agree with you he's only great! He seems very kind when he speaks to me.
Hahaha yeah it's fine it wasn't real jail as much as just my dad trying to scare me into behaving I was a shitty teenager and I broke into a lot of places and did a lot of shit I'm not crazy proud of But also fuck him so
[there's a pause.]
Yeah I really do I've gotten used to being around them all the time and I feel off balance when they're not here You never realize how much you miss people until they're not around to make dick jokes with
Oh! Yes - to borrow your own word, fuck that guy! That's always the worst. I was almost sent away as punishment too. Even if it's with good intentions, how can it feel like anything but the most insulting and horrifying thing?
Oh... I see. I'm sorry, Beauregard. I hope that you'll be able to see them again soon. I think Crow might enjoy that type of humor? Kon could? Or - I don't know how good at it I'd be, but if it'd make you feel more at home... I can make an attempt.... I know that it's about more than just the jokes but - I'm not fond of the feeling of missing someone either.
I normally don't but the situation felt appropriate... This may be bold of me but I have a bone to pick with anyone who's hurt you.
And... to not possess a love that you thought you'd always have - When something isn't as unconditional as it first seems... It feels like a betrayal, doesn't it? I agree. It feels... bad. I wish you didn't have to feel that.
But oh Beauregard, of course I'm going to hang out with you! We have a DDR match scheduled, don't we? Let's do a bunch of fun things to make up for lost time.
[she's not sure she wants to talk about it over text, but all of that does ring very true. she swallows kind of hard, and then switches to actual text rather than speaking. just leaves all that there.]
We do Looking forward to it
I'm going to let you get back to your work for now but thanks for explainin some stuff to me
It was a pleasure speaking to you, Beauregard. I'm sorry if some rather unhappy things got brought up - but I appreciate your openness. When we meet in person, I promise I'll return it entirely. And I hope you'll allow me the pleasure of greeting you with a big hug. I'd rather like to give you one now but - well, soon. Take care until then.
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I guess I mean I don't really like being taught
I like getting my hands into it on my own terms
I never liked having a tutor because they always treated me like I'm stupid I'm not stupid
History can tell you a lot though. About people and places and how things are going to happen
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Well, that's not as reassuring as you think either...
Are you an adventurer of sorts? That sounds very dangerous.
Oh of course you're not stupid, tutors can just be some of the most condescending people.
I'm glad you've escaped them.
But that's true - it's important to look at what's happened in the past in order to understand what's worked and doesn't work.
I think what you're describing sounds like a very exciting way to learn.
Do you think you'd like science experiments too if you like having a personal touch?
Putting things together and seeing how they might change or explode (within a safe environment)?
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Mercenary technically
You got it in one though
Hands on shit is usually more my thing
Safe environment not necessary but appreciated
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It sounds so gallant but - yes, that does sound dangerous.
Do you enjoy what you do?
Perfect!
Then how about when we get a chance to meet, we trade? I'd still like to learn to throw a punch if you're willing to teach.
And I'll find some experiments we can do together - I'll make sure they're flashy and loud.
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The company's good and the pay's pretty alright but mostly I do it for
I guess for leaving things better than I found them much as I can
Haha yeah sure I'm still good to teach
I'm already practicing there's a few people who wanted to learn this week
Looking forward to it
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That's a lovely sentiment.
So you work for the common good? More people ought to do that.
Are Caleb and Mollymauk your fellow mercenaries as well as your friends?
Oh, really? It seems that you're all taking care of your own curriculum.
I love that! Please make use of the grounds as much as you'd like.
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Sometimes we accidentally fuck up but I feel like everybody does that
But yeah they're part of the same group the mighty nine
Nine
[pause, as she types it.]
Nein
We're keeping ourselves busy for sure
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But I meet fewer people who actively try to leave things better than they find it.
So I think that does count for something very special.
Are there indeed nine of you in the Mighty Nein?
Excellent!! Oh, I'd hate for your school days to be dull while you're here.
Hopefully the Dorm Heads will be able to join you all soon so we can enjoy the company too.
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There's seven of us
[hehehe]
Yeah I'm looking forward to it honestly Ichiro was talking about a game night and I absolutely have to crush you at DDR
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This seems misleading.
You think you can crush me, Beauregard?!
Even if I'm very excited that you're enjoying the Game Room, now I feel like my pride is on the line...
You're on!
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Nein means no in Zemnian so it's basically the big nope
Points to my eyes points to yours
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That is funny - the Big Nope Mercenary Band!
I don't know much about you and your friends, yet that sounds like it suits you well.
Oh!! You're using one of Luke's stickers!
He's a very endearing young man, isn't he?
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I like him
He seems like he's maybe a bit like Caleb where he's standoffish but really great once you get to know him
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Luke is sweet - he's younger, but I think that he really does have a lot of wisdom for his age at times. Certainly more than I had then.
Is Caleb standoffish? Thus far I agree with you he's only great! He seems very kind when he speaks to me.
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Hey I'm betting the dude hasn't been to jail so he's doing better than I was
Caleb's
Not as bad as he used to be
He's figured a lot of shit out and I'm kind of proud of him for it
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You went to jail when you were 16, Beauregard?! For what?
Is that alright to ask?
Is that so...
It truly sounds like you're all quite close. That's sweet.
Do you miss the rest of your friends while you're here?
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I was a shitty teenager and I broke into a lot of places and did a lot of shit I'm not crazy proud of
But also fuck him so
[there's a pause.]
Yeah
I really do
I've gotten used to being around them all the time and I feel off balance when they're not here
You never realize how much you miss people until they're not around to make dick jokes with
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Yes - to borrow your own word, fuck that guy!
That's always the worst. I was almost sent away as punishment too.
Even if it's with good intentions, how can it feel like anything but the most insulting and horrifying thing?
Oh... I see. I'm sorry, Beauregard. I hope that you'll be able to see them again soon.
I think Crow might enjoy that type of humor? Kon could?
Or - I don't know how good at it I'd be, but if it'd make you feel more at home... I can make an attempt....
I know that it's about more than just the jokes but -
I'm not fond of the feeling of missing someone either.
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I didn't know you COULD swear, nice
Yeah I don't know it felt
Bad I guess
Like you always think parents are supposed to be behind you the whole way but then they just aren't.
[hm. she just sort of stares down at her phone for a bit, and then:]
Nah you're busy but I appreciate it
I'll talk to both of them and see
You owe me hanging out when you're not busy anyway that can be enough
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This may be bold of me but I have a bone to pick with anyone who's hurt you.
And... to not possess a love that you thought you'd always have -
When something isn't as unconditional as it first seems...
It feels like a betrayal, doesn't it?
I agree. It feels... bad.
I wish you didn't have to feel that.
But oh Beauregard, of course I'm going to hang out with you!
We have a DDR match scheduled, don't we?
Let's do a bunch of fun things to make up for lost time.
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It's
[she's not sure she wants to talk about it over text, but all of that does ring very true. she swallows kind of hard, and then switches to actual text rather than speaking. just leaves all that there.]
We do
Looking forward to it
I'm going to let you get back to your work for now but thanks for explainin some stuff to me
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It was a pleasure speaking to you, Beauregard.
I'm sorry if some rather unhappy things got brought up - but I appreciate your openness.
When we meet in person, I promise I'll return it entirely.
And I hope you'll allow me the pleasure of greeting you with a big hug.
I'd rather like to give you one now but - well, soon.
Take care until then.