No. [He says this super fast, though, so probably. He watches her drink like a pure, (aki voice) snow-colored violet Disney.] Boys can't have long hair?
...I should be happy, right? Because of Manwol. I am, but... I'm still disappointed.
Stop fucking putting words in my mouth. [but yes, though] Neither of them should have died. This shouldn't be a thing. But it's all coulda shoulda woulda - we fucked up, we picked the wrong person, and now a girl is dead, a girl who just wanted to fucking help.
[a hiccup. she shifts, and snatches the bottle of alcohol to take a drink.]
I didn't really have a reason. [sigh.] I just - wanted to know if you had a different perspective, I guess. I'm trying to make sense of everything. Trying to figure out how the fuck to make sure this doesn't happen again.
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...I should be happy, right? Because of Manwol. I am, but... I'm still disappointed.
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I mean, someone died. A little girl died instead of a grown one. Disappointed is not the word I'd use.
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You think a woman deserves to die more than a girl? I don't think either one of them should.
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Stop fucking putting words in my mouth. [but yes, though] Neither of them should have died. This shouldn't be a thing. But it's all coulda shoulda woulda - we fucked up, we picked the wrong person, and now a girl is dead, a girl who just wanted to fucking help.
[a hiccup. she shifts, and snatches the bottle of alcohol to take a drink.]
Whatever. I'm an asshole, don't listen to me.
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I was agreeing with you. You made it sound like disappointed wasn't enough. Am I supposed to be groveling to show how much I don't like it?
I'm disappointed in everything because I don't trust myself being angry. I don't know how many more times I can say that before any of you believe me.
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You've never said that to me, [or if he did she wasn't listening] so don't get on my fucking case. I also didn't say you should grovel --
This is fucking stupid, I'm not gonna argue with you over how godsdamned sad we should say we are when Lila is fucking dead.
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scowls.]
I didn't come to argue. I came because you said you wanted to meet.
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I didn't really have a reason. [sigh.] I just - wanted to know if you had a different perspective, I guess. I'm trying to make sense of everything. Trying to figure out how the fuck to make sure this doesn't happen again.
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Just because I'm living my normal life doesn't mean I don't want to help.
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I don't know how much you're gonna be able to do.
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But I'm in the unique position of not having to follow the rules. So.
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Maybe following the rules will get us what you can't.
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[beau quit sassing him]
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It... could happen!
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Look - this isn't to say you can't, just. [... how does she be diplomatic, this is not her strong suit]
There's gonna be some stuff you can't do. And when I run into things I can't do, I'll see if you can. Alright?
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Fine. Deal.