No, you're right. You shouldn't give in to taking the easy way out, like cheating. And it's okay to get help sometimes, like studying with someone else.
about entrance exams? not really. I don't really know where I'll go or what I'll do yet, so it's hard to be nervous about taking an exam. and there's been bigger things on my mind lately.
I've never worried about passing them before. The class I failed was tougher than I thought. I felt pathetic because I was struggling while everyone else seemed to do fine.
Then I started thinking maybe I was just stupid. What happens if I couldn't do it?
it's hard when everyone around you seems to have it so much easier with something you're trying really hard at and failing. I struggled with that for a while. I kept comparing myself to other people. I wanted to be better than I was, but I didn't know how. but a friend of mine told me different people have different strengths, and there are things only I can do no one else can.
seems obvious when put like that, but at the time, it felt like a revelation. so, maybe this is stuff you already know. I'll say it anyway.
you're not stupid for struggling. even if it ends up that's something you can't do, that's alright. there's only one of you in the world. you have your own strengths and weaknesses, and other people will still want you around despite all that.
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probably not. I don't think she has those in her world. thanks.
oh. he talked about that? yeah. I've got a band back home. Knife of Day. buy our merch! (I'm kidding.) I play bass + sing. I only have my harmonica here, though.
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does being dorm head help raise it back?
like cram school?
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Being Dorm Head doesn't help fix my grade. It was a personal goal. A second chance to prove I'm not giving into failure.
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who are you trying to prove it to? yourself? failing one class doesn't make you a failure.
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you sound a little like a friend of mine.
he wants to be a doctor, so he's always working and studying hard.
what do you want to do in the future? or is it just that you want to graduate that badly?
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To say I was able to do it on my own.
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or is that about proving that you could to yourself?
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but I understand if graduating under your own power is important to you.
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I'm not sure how grades work here. it's more american, right? how many years do you have left before your entrance exam?
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I'm a sophomore. I have two more years after this one.
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hey, what's this world called, anyway?
I see. so that's about the same as how it works back home. I'll be taking entrance exams next year.
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Are you nervous?
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just "The World"?
about entrance exams? not really. I don't really know where I'll go or what I'll do yet, so it's hard to be nervous about taking an exam. and there's been bigger things on my mind lately.
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I don't have anything planned yet either. But I'm worried I won't pass. What's on your mind if it isn't the exams?
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it's over now, so it's fine.
but for a while it was just one thing after another. it's hard to explain.
I've never really been worried about passing classes anyway.
as long as I do the work, usually it's enough.
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I've never worried about passing them before. The class I failed was tougher than I thought. I felt pathetic because I was struggling while everyone else seemed to do fine.
Then I started thinking maybe I was just stupid. What happens if I couldn't do it?
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I struggled with that for a while. I kept comparing myself to other people.
I wanted to be better than I was, but I didn't know how.
but a friend of mine told me different people have different strengths, and there are things only I can do no one else can.
seems obvious when put like that, but at the time, it felt like a revelation. so, maybe this is stuff you already know. I'll say it anyway.
you're not stupid for struggling. even if it ends up that's something you can't do, that's alright.
there's only one of you in the world. you have your own strengths and weaknesses, and other people will still want you around despite all that.
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sorry, maybe I'm answering this too seriously.
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It's okay. Even if it sounds kind of sappy, your friend's right. I think I needed to hear it from someone who understands.
Thanks, Yamato.
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no problem.
oh, the penguin.
beau said you sent it to her?
the files for it, I guess.
can I have it too?
it's cute.
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Sure. Here. He's pretty cool.
[yamato gets a file attachment for stickers.]
This you? Ichiro said you were into music.
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thanks.
oh. he talked about that?
yeah. I've got a band back home.
Knife of Day. buy our merch!
(I'm kidding.)
I play bass + sing.
I only have my harmonica here, though.
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Depends on if your band sounds as cool as its name. I might.
Do you like it? Being in a band.
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