is there any way to stop it hes likeable and kind but its been fucking winter or summer every single week from them except for bradley and where do we go from there?
I'm afraid we know what became of my auction item. So I can't offer any definites on how to stop this. But you're right - he's kind, and well-liked. I think that in and of itself may work in his favor.
Did something happen to scare you? Or are you preparing for the worst?
for as fucking rotten as this entire murder school thought up by a shit script is its still better than what im used to because you and others have treated me more like a person than most and even after killing even after having my mind controlled like that you and others still accepted me and every time i feel a little happiness it is always torn away and when the goddamn story likes to make people forget the people they love when i have already been made to do that
[ how couldn't she be scared? how couldn't she try to prepare for the worst? ]
[ Kainé is seated at the garden, looking at the flowers with a closed off expression, but the moment she hears the thoughts, she stands up s she can be seen. ]
You don't have to panic.
[ As if she didn't just text some worrying words. ]
... you don't need to say that you are, when you aren't.
Nothing about this place is fine, and none of it is fair. I know that saying so doesn't help anything but... I don't want you to feel like you have to hide anything from me.
Let's make plans. I don't want you to lose him. I don't want you to forget.
[ . . . ]
So let's keep your memories somewhere safe, until they come back to you on their own. If you want me to hold onto them for you. We'll help keep each other's loved ones safe.
.... it's a little bad. I think I react worse to things - than others do.
[Annie is so kind. She only gets sad. I can't suppress the urge to hate others for stealing from me.]
.... I can start with my home, perhaps. My family - the Armelia Duchy. My father, the Prime Minister. My mother, a flower of high society. My grandfather, a retired general who forgets he's retired. My younger brother, studious and serious - finally getting it together so he can inherit the family title.
And my chosen family... Tanya is my companion, and there's no one in the world who's sharper or more attuned to my needs than she is. Dida and Lyle were trained by my grandfather at a young age, and serve as my guards among other things. Dida always seems lazy, but he's the most honest with me - and Lyle might appear a bit uptight, but his heart is always sincere. Rehme, whose memory is encyclopedic, and should have more confidence in herself most days.
They all support me, and look after me - I haven't even talked about my fief, or Winter... But this is the first place I've ever....
[That someone left, even though they didn't want to. I've only ever been abandoned by choice before. I'm surprised there's something in the world that hurts more.]
Kainé's sense of what's good or right isn't based on a moral compass. It's based on what she feels, and it's influenced by the people she cares for. She can hate so easily. ]
You love them, and they love you.
[ Her family, chosen or not. Her fief. Winter.
I won't leave you. I won't abandon you. Not by choice. ]
[ . . . . her expression softens at that, and she supposes there's no way that she can deny either of those statements. so she'll just take kainé's hand gently in both of hers and without a hint of hesitation:]
And I love you.
[in addition to her family, her fief, winter. she loves kainé so much and sees no reason to flinch back from it -
her thoughts only reflect the very same statement.
Please don't try to leave again. I've only come to love you more.]
[ Kainé is stunned to hear this. It's said so plainly that it takes her aback. She didn't think anyone would say they loved her in any capacity here that wasn't Nier.
Her gaze lowers, as she trembles with her emotions. Her fingers curl around one of Iris' hands, and her grip is firm. ]
I don't want to leave you. [ ... ] I didn't think there'd be so many I didn't want to let go of.
[ . . . it's easy to believe, she thinks, because it is Kainé. Iris has heard so many people's thoughts, so many times now, and these words would be so hard to believe in so many situations.
Except Kainé is so truthful as a person.
She knows it wouldn't be said if it wasn't something she could believe in.
Thank you. is her first thought - It means so much to me that you feel that way.]
... we'll find a way to not let go, then. I'll find you again, after this. You and Nier can come to my fief, if you'd like - and you can visit, or you can spend all your days there with your loved ones. Whenever.
[If you want to stay, I'll always find a way to keep you with me.]
[ It says something that she doesn't reject out of the gate. She tries so much to push people away, but the people here at Wiwaldi have somehow worn her down, Her world is a shithole, and as long as she can take the people dear to her and Nier, she doesn't mind leaving it behind. ]
... If it's possible, I'll talk to him.
[ Her heart is warm and full with her love for Iris.
I want to see you again. And again. For however long I can. ]
With the wishes, it should be. You might need to be strategic between you and Nier - or see someone who is willing to spare theirs so we can all open the gates to each other's worlds. I... I have to use mine for Crow. [Do you know? Did he tell you?] But I've been planting enough seeds I hope someone will take the opportunity.
But as long as you can make it to me - or I will find a way to you - then my home is your home.
[You are always welcome where I am. I will take care of you for as long as I can.]
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hes likeable and kind
but its been fucking winter or summer
every single week from them except for bradley
and where do we go from there?
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So I can't offer any definites on how to stop this.
But you're right - he's kind, and well-liked.
I think that in and of itself may work in his favor.
Did something happen to scare you?
Or are you preparing for the worst?
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its still better than what im used to
because you and others have treated me more like a person than most
and even after killing
even after having my mind controlled like that
you and others still accepted me
and every time i feel a little happiness
it is always torn away
and when the goddamn story likes to make people forget the people they love
when i have already been made to do that
[ how couldn't she be scared? how couldn't she try to prepare for the worst? ]
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May I come see you?
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[and she is! her thoughts are immediately Where is she? Where is she? worried like a broken record]
Kainé?
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You don't have to panic.
[ As if she didn't just text some worrying words. ]
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[if she's to be honest, with a little sigh as she goes to approach kainé.]
.... Can I hold onto your hand?
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I'm fine.
[ She is not fine. ]
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... you don't need to say that you are, when you aren't.
Nothing about this place is fine, and none of it is fair. I know that saying so doesn't help anything but... I don't want you to feel like you have to hide anything from me.
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She looks away. ]
I'm used to that. Unfairness and shit like that. I guess...
[ I feel too helpless. ]
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I don't want you to be used to it.
[her thoughts reflect the exact same words, in the exact same moment.]
... we can try to make our own hope, then.
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How?
[ At least she isn't saying they can't. ]
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[she'll give kainé's hand a squeeze at that.]
Let's make plans. I don't want you to lose him. I don't want you to forget.
[ . . . ]
So let's keep your memories somewhere safe, until they come back to you on their own. If you want me to hold onto them for you. We'll help keep each other's loved ones safe.
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She nods. ]
Okay. We can trade.
[ They can help each other. ]
... You can go first.
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she laughs at first, surprised and then a little floored as she realizes -
I don't know where to start.]
... I really have become such a spoiled person.
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[ It might mean loss hits more often and harder, but Kainé is someone who prefers to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.
She thinks it makes sense for Iris to be spoiled. ]
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[Annie is so kind. She only gets sad. I can't suppress the urge to hate others for stealing from me.]
.... I can start with my home, perhaps. My family - the Armelia Duchy. My father, the Prime Minister. My mother, a flower of high society. My grandfather, a retired general who forgets he's retired. My younger brother, studious and serious - finally getting it together so he can inherit the family title.
And my chosen family... Tanya is my companion, and there's no one in the world who's sharper or more attuned to my needs than she is. Dida and Lyle were trained by my grandfather at a young age, and serve as my guards among other things. Dida always seems lazy, but he's the most honest with me - and Lyle might appear a bit uptight, but his heart is always sincere. Rehme, whose memory is encyclopedic, and should have more confidence in herself most days.
They all support me, and look after me - I haven't even talked about my fief, or Winter... But this is the first place I've ever....
[That someone left, even though they didn't want to. I've only ever been abandoned by choice before. I'm surprised there's something in the world that hurts more.]
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[ It just shows how much Iris cares.
Kainé's sense of what's good or right isn't based on a moral compass. It's based on what she feels, and it's influenced by the people she cares for. She can hate so easily. ]
You love them, and they love you.
[ Her family, chosen or not. Her fief. Winter.
I won't leave you. I won't abandon you. Not by choice. ]
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And I love you.
[in addition to her family, her fief, winter. she loves kainé so much and sees no reason to flinch back from it -
her thoughts only reflect the very same statement.
Please don't try to leave again. I've only come to love you more.]
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Her gaze lowers, as she trembles with her emotions. Her fingers curl around one of Iris' hands, and her grip is firm. ]
I don't want to leave you. [ ... ] I didn't think there'd be so many I didn't want to let go of.
[ I don't want to let you go. ]
I don't care if I'm selfish.
[ I don't care if I don't deserve to be. ]
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Except Kainé is so truthful as a person.
She knows it wouldn't be said if it wasn't something she could believe in.
Thank you. is her first thought - It means so much to me that you feel that way.]
... we'll find a way to not let go, then. I'll find you again, after this. You and Nier can come to my fief, if you'd like - and you can visit, or you can spend all your days there with your loved ones. Whenever.
[If you want to stay, I'll always find a way to keep you with me.]
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[ It says something that she doesn't reject out of the gate. She tries so much to push people away, but the people here at Wiwaldi have somehow worn her down, Her world is a shithole, and as long as she can take the people dear to her and Nier, she doesn't mind leaving it behind. ]
... If it's possible, I'll talk to him.
[ Her heart is warm and full with her love for Iris.
I want to see you again. And again. For however long I can. ]
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With the wishes, it should be. You might need to be strategic between you and Nier - or see someone who is willing to spare theirs so we can all open the gates to each other's worlds. I... I have to use mine for Crow. [Do you know? Did he tell you?] But I've been planting enough seeds I hope someone will take the opportunity.
But as long as you can make it to me - or I will find a way to you - then my home is your home.
[You are always welcome where I am. I will take care of you for as long as I can.]
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[ And then Nier confirmed it. Crow's a little bitch. If what Iris is referencing is what she thinks. ]
... I don't know how much we can stretch our wishes.
[ I have to get him back. I have to get them both back. I have to get them all back. ]
But I'll try to go to you.
[ That's the least she can promise. ]
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