Sort of. We said goodbye to them the first time because we really thought we'd never get to see them again. But this last time...it was kind of weird. When we first met, they knew about us and we didn't know anything about them. After the reboot it was the other way around. Yamato says they got their memories back, but I didn't even know before we showed up here.
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I guess what I'm getting at is I'm not going to give up on trying just because it'll get harder and harder to bring you back.
[He looks ahead of them again, but seems to be staring thoughtfully into the distance.]
I didn't give up on Sora either. [...] Naminé asked me if I wanted to seal the darkness and Ansem in my heart away. But to do it, I would have had to be like Sora... asleep in one of her memory pods. I'd forget... but I realized I didn't want to. I wanted to do it on my own.
Plus... I had to wait on Sora to wake up, and I had to help make that happen, too.
I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting to do things on your own. Even if it takes a while. I probably would've made a similar choice if I were you.
[...there's a short, somewhat hesitant grin.]
Then as long as we're all willing to try, this won't be as bad as it could be.
[He looks surprised for a second in the way you do when someone says a thing you hadn't considered. He glances toward the desk, and then lowers his eyes.]
That's okay. I don't need pictures, I don't think. My heart remembers what they look like, just like... their hearts remembered me.
When you were Luke, you thought they were kids you'd only met once and never saw again. It's not really about remembering what they look like, but more about what they mean to you.
[Let him grap this tiny, tiny, tiny shred of almost hope and hold on and pray. Please.]
Nice try. But I know if you're anything like Sora, you're going to worry anyway. Just like... if Yamato is anything like me, he's already been worrying anyway, too.
[Yeah, you better apologize, asshole. Not that there needs to be an apology for anything.]
Don't be stupid. Just because you're the "leader" doesn't mean your friends are going to think everything is hopeless just because you're also worrying a little.
I'd appreciate it if Sora worried a little more actually. Then I'd know he was taking things more seriously than what it seems like at first. He could always just tell me if something is bothering him. Then I'd know for once... I'd need to help him.
I dunno, Yamato's yelled at me a couple of times for not immediately jumping into stuff. He called it running away. [and before riku can say anything:] We're fine, we talked about it later. Things are better.
...if Sora and I are really as alike as you say we are, then it's probably because he thinks he can fix whatever's bothering him on his own. You guys have a lot going on, right? Why add extra worry when there's a bigger picture?
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Not that it's the right answer, but I don't think it's about not wanting the help. More like not knowing if it's worth asking when the problem is something you can fix yourself if you try hard enough.
Well, he's stupid [clearly, they are talking about both the people here and their other, better halves] if he thinks he can do it on his own.
That's what I thought, too, and I was an idiot. So I know better than either of us that doing it on your own is just going to get you into trouble down the road. All Sora has to do is tell me.
I'd... drop whatever I was doing to make sure he was okay. Even if the world was ending... I'd put that aside for him.
[Maybe not entirely a GREAT idea, but his point is, his friend is so important to him.]
...I have the feeling he'd do the same for you. [mostly because he and yamato would, and have, put things aside for each other.] I don't know. I'm just saying there are some things that take a little longer to be okay with. You just have to keep being there for him, which kinda goes right back to all of us being here for you guys.
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Is that what you meant... when you talked about saying goodbye?
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I guess what I'm getting at is I'm not going to give up on trying just because it'll get harder and harder to bring you back.
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[He looks ahead of them again, but seems to be staring thoughtfully into the distance.]
I didn't give up on Sora either. [...] Naminé asked me if I wanted to seal the darkness and Ansem in my heart away. But to do it, I would have had to be like Sora... asleep in one of her memory pods. I'd forget... but I realized I didn't want to. I wanted to do it on my own.
Plus... I had to wait on Sora to wake up, and I had to help make that happen, too.
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So I wouldn't give up on any of you either.
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[...there's a short, somewhat hesitant grin.]
Then as long as we're all willing to try, this won't be as bad as it could be.
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There's a little--who knows?--longing? pain? in his eyes when he glances at Taichi, but he looks away really quickly and swallows.]
I know. We have each other to help us through.
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...too bad you don't have any more pictures of Sora and Kairi and stuff.
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That's okay. I don't need pictures, I don't think. My heart remembers what they look like, just like... their hearts remembered me.
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When you were Luke, you thought they were kids you'd only met once and never saw again. It's not really about remembering what they look like, but more about what they mean to you.
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Even if my memory isn't the same, if I forget... my heart won't. My heart will remember them. It'll lead us back together again.
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Good. As long as you can hold on to that, then...I can't worry as much, I guess. [he will worry forever it's fine.]
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Nice try. But I know if you're anything like Sora, you're going to worry anyway. Just like... if Yamato is anything like me, he's already been worrying anyway, too.
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You and Yamato both worry too much in the first place, you know. [as opposed to taichi who only worries about certain things.]
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Some people have to worry to make up for the two people who don't.
[Pointed look at Taichi.]
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I worry about stuff when I have to, but...I'm the one who's supposed to lead the team and keep everybody safe. If I worry too much, then it's worse.
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I'm just going to keep saying over and over that you sound exactly like Sora until you stop saying things that sound exactly like him.
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Sorry? I think? [HE'S NOT SURE IF HE SHOULD APOLOGIZE OR WHAT.]
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Don't be stupid. Just because you're the "leader" doesn't mean your friends are going to think everything is hopeless just because you're also worrying a little.
I'd appreciate it if Sora worried a little more actually. Then I'd know he was taking things more seriously than what it seems like at first. He could always just tell me if something is bothering him. Then I'd know for once... I'd need to help him.
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...if Sora and I are really as alike as you say we are, then it's probably because he thinks he can fix whatever's bothering him on his own. You guys have a lot going on, right? Why add extra worry when there's a bigger picture?
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Not that it's the right answer, but I don't think it's about not wanting the help. More like not knowing if it's worth asking when the problem is something you can fix yourself if you try hard enough.
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That's what I thought, too, and I was an idiot. So I know better than either of us that doing it on your own is just going to get you into trouble down the road. All Sora has to do is tell me.
I'd... drop whatever I was doing to make sure he was okay. Even if the world was ending... I'd put that aside for him.
[Maybe not entirely a GREAT idea, but his point is, his friend is so important to him.]
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...I have the feeling he'd do the same for you. [mostly because he and yamato would, and have, put things aside for each other.] I don't know. I'm just saying there are some things that take a little longer to be okay with. You just have to keep being there for him, which kinda goes right back to all of us being here for you guys.
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I could say the exact same for you all, you know. I don't think a lot of you tell us stuff because you're trying to keep us from worrying.
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Considering how stressful things can be around our dorm, can you really blame any of them, Riku?
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No... but we can't help you if you don't tell us anything about what's going on. I mean, some stuff we can sort of figure out, but...
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It's fine if it's stuff from home, too. I've already... unloaded on you, and Yamato, and others too. Like you guys really need my problems.
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