[ i submitted this and then immediately had to go to dinner im gomen
anyway yeah, he's returning from checking up on someone in another dorm when he hears the noise, so. ichiro rounds the corner with his hands in his pockets, keeping a distance in case plates are being thrown at 100mph but still peering around to see. are you wearing your safety goggles, vi. ]
there's probably a few shards of broken vase already on the ground, but she's setting up another set of very ugly vases to get smacked around. she's also got a stick in her hand.]
Oh, Ichiro - hello. May I help you with something?
[ he shakes his head, to the question, giving a brief dip in greeting. ]
...Nah, don't need help. Just coming to check up on everybody. [ viola included, which he doesn't say, because that's obvious. everyone's frustrated. everyone's tired. everyone's angry. it's been a long, long weekend. ] Show me your swing?
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Hey, if you've got good basics, then that means you've got the foundation to get better. That's always impressive.
[ encouraging!! he settles to lean back against the wall, though, keeping his distance so he doesn't end up blinded by flying glass. take my eye coward ]
[but she'll move to angle then so that she can definitely bat away from him. her swing is good! not polished or anything, but she's able to satisfyingly knock the vase off the table it's on and into a nearby tree for two smashes in once hit
also do you want hear fear tattoo sisi because there's something glowing on her left shoulderblade]
Hell yeah! That was nice, Vi-chan! Try to like - angle a little bit more like this [ demonstrating how to set up a good base swing ] and I bet you'll shatter it in one! You got this.
[ this does require shoulders so yeah he does end up seeing that glowing light on her next swing. ]
that catches him a little off guard when he looks; ichiro blinks, a little surprised, and almost misses the swing. the smash of the vase startles him, and he looks over at her again, shaking his head to snap out of it as he absently reaches and presses his thumb against his wrist where his own tattoo is. ]
Nice one. [ ichiro's smile is easy, though, and genuine. ] See? Definitely impressive.
she laughs a little bit at the comment though, peering over her shoulder at him, mouth about to say something - before catching his absent minded look. it seems to click rather quickly for her as she whirls around so she can properly face him with a smile]
[ for a moment he stops, looking down at his hand, and taking the distraction for what it's worth. everything comes back - lila, earlier, the quiet, burning anger that feels impossible to extinguish no matter what happens. the fury from the trial the night before.
he curls his fingers into a fist, again, making the cuts hurt. a reminder. ]
Probably shouldn't. [ as ichiro opens his hand, again, flexing his fingers. ] Keep accidentally popping off these bandaids. [ the paw patrol bandages are flimsy and not made for knuckles!
... but really, he just isn't ready to get that furious again. especially not right now, especially not in front of viola. keep it in check. ]
has not been scolded by a woman in a nice way in like his entire life that he can remember? this is a really weird experience
it's probably just the sheer energy of viola that has him just straight up agreeing, and he nods with an affirmative noise, shoving his hands into his pockets afterwards and doing an about face so they can head back into the dorm building.
the first aid kit's just upstairs in the common room!! set out for people to use, with a note on it about replacing supplies and so on and so forth. he'll gesture to it when they get up there, rubbing the back of his neck. ]
Please don't gesture so freely if you're hurt and your wounds are unwrapped.
[gentle scolding!
like her hands are hurt too but at least her bandages are on! the ones on her right hand are a little loose but they're there. she's going to go ahead and get the medical kit then, carefully taking no more than she absolutely needs. so one alcohol wipe and just a little bit of bandages with some medical tape.
she's going to sit on one of the couches and gesture for ichiro to sit with her]
[ oh now he REALLY sounds like a puppy but ichiro obeys like a good boy, coming over to sit down and offering her his hands.
his left hand is fine! the right - he does in fact have bandaids on his knuckles, though several of them are coming off. taking them off will reveal scratches and scrapes on his knuckles, as well as blooming, blackish purple bruises. it's not freely bleeding anymore, at least! ichiro glances away from her when the bandages are off, though, shoulders hunched up at his ears. busted. ]
It's not about if it hurts, it's about whether or not you're risking an infection as you run about to take care of everyone else before you take care of yourself.
[scolding!
but she will take the antiseptic wipe and gently run it across the scratches and scrapes to make sure that they're clean.
that said, she's only scolding because she's worried. once she sees the injuries themselves, her voice softens into more of a concerned curiosity than her nagging]
[ he doesn't flinch over the antiseptic or the gentle scolding, because, yeah. she's got a point. and asking...
ichiro's gaze flicks away again, looking down at his knuckles, his mouth pulled into a line. ]
... After the trial, yesterday. I just - I got so pissed off, at the whole situation, and what was happening with Manwol-san [ and now with lila - thinking it makes his stomach flip and churn, and his brow furrows even further, ] that I had to get it out somehow, and I just - I went out and I punched the wall on the outside of the gym a couple times.
[ so, a wound self inflicted.
there's a pause. he looks away again, voice a little rougher. ] ...told you, I got a bad temper, Vi-chan.
[ that delinquent thug image that he had to lean into all of his life - it never went away. it's still there, under a happier surface, that same furious, angry teenager who hated the chuuoku and the world and every injustice in it. it's harder to control than he wants. it feels like it always will be. ]
[she'll continue to gently clean his injury, listening to him as he speaks.]
Why, it's the entire reason why I was just outside smashing things. A way to get some frustration out, because any reasonable person would be upset about the things that have happened. [she'll move to carefully wrap a bandage around his knuckles]
You still talk as though you're ashamed of it... May I ask why?
it takes him a moment to answer, as he puts the right words together. it's funny how this works out; the way his hands are settled while she's bandaging, she can probably see the faint glow on his wrist. losing his family. ]
...I don't want my brothers to be like me, Vi. I was - I was a shitty, angry person when I was younger. I did a lot of shitty things. [ he'd mentioned something similar along those lines once before; that he understood how dimitri felt, when they first met. ichiro's delinquent days aren't far behind him. ] I've done a lot of shit I'm not proud of because I got pissed, and I'm trying to make up for it now, but it doesn't stop that easy. I lose track of my head, and I say shit I don't mean, and --
[ that frown deepens. he pauses, and then shakes his head. ] ...I know they're not here, and I know this situation's shitty, and different, and I can be mad about it, but I can't - there are still people here that are relying on me. I mean, fuck - Mabel's only twelve. I don't want people who are already looking up to me to see me lose it like that, either, and I don't want to - I don't wanna be that person again. I've gotta be better than that.
[ what if he loses his temper at the wrong time? what if he snaps? what if it gets someone killed? what if the last thing he says to someone here - because loss is so, so prevalent, and it feels more stark than ever now - is a swear or a shout?
what if he influences someone else, in the negatives, makes them feel as furious and shitty and angry as he does?
So you'll throw your fist at a wall and have it so that the only person you injure is yourself? Is that meant to be a good example too? So that people learn that it is alright if the only victim of their temper is themselves - that it's okay, if their body is the only one to suffer?
[she shakes her head quietly even as her fingers continue to work in their diligent bandaging]
I don't think I'd like children to learn that either - to not value themselves and their well-being. I don't like to hear how little you seem to value yourself.
I am not saying that you ought to let your anger burn wildly - I think you can hone it, concentrate it, make sure only the people and things that deserve to be set aflame are.
But you needn't be ashamed of how much you care, nor how much you feel. I'd said anger is simply another manifestation of conviction, didn't I?
[ for a moment he just looks at her while she's talking, now, eyes a little wide, searching viola's face. not really sure what he's looking for, either - just processing every word, because it's not something anyone's really pointed out to him before. the big brother has to be there to protect. the big brother has to do everything and anything to keep the little brothers safe. the big brother has to do every dirty job to save money. has to face the baddest bullies, the toughest foes, the most dangerous problems. for them, every moment of suffering had been worth it - so it makes logical sense, that if he's gonna lose his temper, he might as well do it in the solitude of the quiet corner around the gym wall instead of near someone else. his first, gut instinct answer is better a wall than someone else's face, because it's never about causing himself pain, it's about causing it to someone else, instead.
it's a different mindset. he's quiet for a long while afterwards, his shoulders finally starting to come down from where he was hunched up, and eventually, the corner of his mouth lifts back up, in a small, humorless smile, his voice just a little wry. ]
.. if I figure out how to do that, [ how to hone it, concentrate it outside of his music - that's the easiest place, but even then that slips away, sometimes, ] then I'll let you know.
[ but, he shakes his head to clear it, and responds, more seriously. ] ... I get what you mean. It's... I just don't want to hurt anyone if I don't have to.
[ ichiro huffs. ] ....Guess that should include me, huh.
Yes, that should include you. [gently, but she'll move to secure the bandages around his knuckles in place. there's the sound of the smile in her voice before it spreads across her lips, fond and amused] Because it turns out that I don't take kindly to when anyone hurts you, even yourself. So what shall I do for your punishment, I wonder...
[she sounds too pleased to be able to deal one out? she just decided this? viola. but at least it's just lightly teasing
her hand lifts and moves to rest on his shoulder, as if she'll press out the harsh bunched up wrinkles and tension herself.]
.... sometimes, when I am so furious I cannot see, I think of how satisfying it will be when I win with a smile on my face. To know that my conviction is stronger than that which tests me - even if it is only long enough until I can find another way to release my anger without hurting myself.
You can do it, Ichiro. But remember that you're human too, so it's alright you you slip sometimes - there are plenty of people who care for you enough to catch you.
That's also the beauty of being someone that people watch. No one will let you hit the ground - at least, I certainly won't.
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i'm going to be honest she's not even hesitating a second. ichiro will hear things crashing and breaking behind the dorm]
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anyway yeah, he's returning from checking up on someone in another dorm when he hears the noise, so. ichiro rounds the corner with his hands in his pockets, keeping a distance in case plates are being thrown at 100mph but still peering around to see. are you wearing your safety goggles, vi. ]
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there's probably a few shards of broken vase already on the ground, but she's setting up another set of very ugly vases to get smacked around. she's also got a stick in her hand.]
Oh, Ichiro - hello. May I help you with something?
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...Nah, don't need help. Just coming to check up on everybody. [ viola included, which he doesn't say, because that's obvious. everyone's frustrated. everyone's tired. everyone's angry. it's been a long, long weekend. ] Show me your swing?
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though she laughs a bit at that. she'll grip the stick like she means to swing but still...]
I hope you aren't looking to be impressed - athleticism isn't exactly my specialty.
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[ encouraging!! he settles to lean back against the wall, though, keeping his distance so he doesn't end up blinded by flying glass. take my eye coward ]
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I suppose!
[but she'll move to angle then so that she can definitely bat away from him. her swing is good! not polished or anything, but she's able to satisfyingly knock the vase off the table it's on and into a nearby tree for two smashes in once hit
also do you want hear fear tattoo sisi because there's something glowing on her left shoulderblade]
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[ this does require shoulders so yeah he does end up seeing that glowing light on her next swing. ]
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with the momentum, her hair shifts and the glowing light will probably a bit more obvious through the cloth of her clothes
LOVE]
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that catches him a little off guard when he looks; ichiro blinks, a little surprised, and almost misses the swing. the smash of the vase startles him, and he looks over at her again, shaking his head to snap out of it as he absently reaches and presses his thumb against his wrist where his own tattoo is. ]
Nice one. [ ichiro's smile is easy, though, and genuine. ] See? Definitely impressive.
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she laughs a little bit at the comment though, peering over her shoulder at him, mouth about to say something - before catching his absent minded look. it seems to click rather quickly for her as she whirls around so she can properly face him with a smile]
... that's very kind of you to say.
Would you like to take a swing?
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he curls his fingers into a fist, again, making the cuts hurt. a reminder. ]
Probably shouldn't. [ as ichiro opens his hand, again, flexing his fingers. ] Keep accidentally popping off these bandaids. [ the paw patrol bandages are flimsy and not made for knuckles!
... but really, he just isn't ready to get that furious again. especially not right now, especially not in front of viola. keep it in check. ]
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... One voucher, or the medical kit.
I would like you to procure one for me, please.
[those are his choices and her tone suggests that he doesn't get any others]
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Uh. The kit's upstairs in the dorm...? [ it is, after all, a community kit ] Do you wanna just... go inside?
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she smiles, confident and sweet, but she'll let go of his hand]
Yes, let's.
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has not been scolded by a woman in a nice way in like his entire life that he can remember? this is a really weird experience
it's probably just the sheer energy of viola that has him just straight up agreeing, and he nods with an affirmative noise, shoving his hands into his pockets afterwards and doing an about face so they can head back into the dorm building.
the first aid kit's just upstairs in the common room!! set out for people to use, with a note on it about replacing supplies and so on and so forth. he'll gesture to it when they get up there, rubbing the back of his neck. ]
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[gentle scolding!
like her hands are hurt too but at least her bandages are on! the ones on her right hand are a little loose but they're there. she's going to go ahead and get the medical kit then, carefully taking no more than she absolutely needs. so one alcohol wipe and just a little bit of bandages with some medical tape.
she's going to sit on one of the couches and gesture for ichiro to sit with her]
Your hands, please.
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[ oh now he REALLY sounds like a puppy but ichiro obeys like a good boy, coming over to sit down and offering her his hands.
his left hand is fine! the right - he does in fact have bandaids on his knuckles, though several of them are coming off. taking them off will reveal scratches and scrapes on his knuckles, as well as blooming, blackish purple bruises. it's not freely bleeding anymore, at least! ichiro glances away from her when the bandages are off, though, shoulders hunched up at his ears. busted. ]
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It's not about if it hurts, it's about whether or not you're risking an infection as you run about to take care of everyone else before you take care of yourself.
[scolding!
but she will take the antiseptic wipe and gently run it across the scratches and scrapes to make sure that they're clean.
that said, she's only scolding because she's worried. once she sees the injuries themselves, her voice softens into more of a concerned curiosity than her nagging]
... will you tell me what happened?
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ichiro's gaze flicks away again, looking down at his knuckles, his mouth pulled into a line. ]
... After the trial, yesterday. I just - I got so pissed off, at the whole situation, and what was happening with Manwol-san [ and now with lila - thinking it makes his stomach flip and churn, and his brow furrows even further, ] that I had to get it out somehow, and I just - I went out and I punched the wall on the outside of the gym a couple times.
[ so, a wound self inflicted.
there's a pause. he looks away again, voice a little rougher. ] ...told you, I got a bad temper, Vi-chan.
[ that delinquent thug image that he had to lean into all of his life - it never went away. it's still there, under a happier surface, that same furious, angry teenager who hated the chuuoku and the world and every injustice in it. it's harder to control than he wants. it feels like it always will be. ]
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... that's okay. I do, too.
[she'll continue to gently clean his injury, listening to him as he speaks.]
Why, it's the entire reason why I was just outside smashing things. A way to get some frustration out, because any reasonable person would be upset about the things that have happened. [she'll move to carefully wrap a bandage around his knuckles]
You still talk as though you're ashamed of it... May I ask why?
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it takes him a moment to answer, as he puts the right words together. it's funny how this works out; the way his hands are settled while she's bandaging, she can probably see the faint glow on his wrist. losing his family. ]
...I don't want my brothers to be like me, Vi. I was - I was a shitty, angry person when I was younger. I did a lot of shitty things. [ he'd mentioned something similar along those lines once before; that he understood how dimitri felt, when they first met. ichiro's delinquent days aren't far behind him. ] I've done a lot of shit I'm not proud of because I got pissed, and I'm trying to make up for it now, but it doesn't stop that easy. I lose track of my head, and I say shit I don't mean, and --
[ that frown deepens. he pauses, and then shakes his head. ] ...I know they're not here, and I know this situation's shitty, and different, and I can be mad about it, but I can't - there are still people here that are relying on me. I mean, fuck - Mabel's only twelve. I don't want people who are already looking up to me to see me lose it like that, either, and I don't want to - I don't wanna be that person again. I've gotta be better than that.
[ what if he loses his temper at the wrong time? what if he snaps? what if it gets someone killed? what if the last thing he says to someone here - because loss is so, so prevalent, and it feels more stark than ever now - is a swear or a shout?
what if he influences someone else, in the negatives, makes them feel as furious and shitty and angry as he does?
ichiro can't. he just can't let that happen. ]
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So you'll throw your fist at a wall and have it so that the only person you injure is yourself? Is that meant to be a good example too? So that people learn that it is alright if the only victim of their temper is themselves - that it's okay, if their body is the only one to suffer?
[she shakes her head quietly even as her fingers continue to work in their diligent bandaging]
I don't think I'd like children to learn that either - to not value themselves and their well-being. I don't like to hear how little you seem to value yourself.
I am not saying that you ought to let your anger burn wildly - I think you can hone it, concentrate it, make sure only the people and things that deserve to be set aflame are.
But you needn't be ashamed of how much you care, nor how much you feel. I'd said anger is simply another manifestation of conviction, didn't I?
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it's a different mindset. he's quiet for a long while afterwards, his shoulders finally starting to come down from where he was hunched up, and eventually, the corner of his mouth lifts back up, in a small, humorless smile, his voice just a little wry. ]
.. if I figure out how to do that, [ how to hone it, concentrate it outside of his music - that's the easiest place, but even then that slips away, sometimes, ] then I'll let you know.
[ but, he shakes his head to clear it, and responds, more seriously. ] ... I get what you mean. It's... I just don't want to hurt anyone if I don't have to.
[ ichiro huffs. ] ....Guess that should include me, huh.
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[she sounds too pleased to be able to deal one out? she just decided this? viola. but at least it's just lightly teasing
her hand lifts and moves to rest on his shoulder, as if she'll press out the harsh bunched up wrinkles and tension herself.]
.... sometimes, when I am so furious I cannot see, I think of how satisfying it will be when I win with a smile on my face. To know that my conviction is stronger than that which tests me - even if it is only long enough until I can find another way to release my anger without hurting myself.
You can do it, Ichiro. But remember that you're human too, so it's alright you you slip sometimes - there are plenty of people who care for you enough to catch you.
That's also the beauty of being someone that people watch. No one will let you hit the ground - at least, I certainly won't.
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