It doesn't exactly harm me, per se. In that state, I'm not fully capable of acknowledging it as me even if you try to explain it, so it's about what you'd expect if someone walked up to you and insisted you were wrong about your own name.
I think some pieces of info should likely be interpreted more loosely, rather than taken as literal. The scripts, for instance — they may not be actual scripts meant to be carried out, but instead representative of something broader.
The impression I got from those is that we're putting on a show It's not specific like those but someone is trying to direct us in some sort of way Or at least, some groups are being directed
It's likely we're being treated as puppets of some kind, although I think viewing it as a show, specifically, might be too narrow. It might be best to focus less on how the info is presented and more what it's generally implying.
Hard to look at a script and think it's implying anything other than a show but okay So more like What, just
Is it implying it's happened more than once? Is it implying more like we're being puppeteered into doing something that I don't know maybe contributes to a goal? I keep thinking about the whole ancient tradition thing and how we haven't really heard anything else back on that
If we haven't heard anything further about it, it might not be relevant. Either because it's more mundane than expected, or given that my memories of a life in this world are fake, it's possible that other parts of its presumed history also aren't real.
You think the people killing other people are given fake memories and motivations? I guess that'd track with the believing a lie until the end of trial thing.
That sounds like it might be the case for Sieghart's death, especially if that note is to be believed. I don't know if that's the case for the others, though. If it were just a matter of believing a lie, that wouldn't explain why they refuse to speak.
It's possible that this place influenced Caiman, but based off what I've heard of that case, it's equally possible that he acted independently. I don't know which is better or worse, if either at all.
... Yeah. Might be better. I just don't know what else to talk about. Looking for answers is the only thing that's made me feel any sort of sane for the past three days.
I know you're not. I'm not either, really. I guess I mostly just sent you a message to check on you.
I don't know if I can trust the four of you always, but I do like you guys, and I hate what's been done to you. Doesn't sit right with me to just let you guys not have support, I guess.
You probably won't take me up on it and I'm not gonna force it but If you need me for anything, if you need me to do something for you or someone to lean on, I'm around.
I wouldn't trust us either. Even with the most generous interpretation, there's no denying that our minds were altered, and it could happen again. You have enough to deal with.
I've dealt with helping a lot of people through this exact thing, man. Having your mind altered, having what makes you, you, fucked up. Half my friends have been forced to do terrible shit under the control of someone else, so you can probably see how this stuff really does not fucking sit right with me.
I wouldn't offer unless I thought I could handle it. Like I said - I'm not going to force it, but I'm here.
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Does it fuck with you if I call you Hugo even when you're Chad?
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What do you think about all of this
The scripts and the mind control shit
I mean other than "it's bad and I hate it" because duh
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It's not specific like those but someone is trying to direct us in some sort of way
Or at least, some groups are being directed
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So more like
What, just
Is it implying it's happened more than once?
Is it implying more like we're being puppeteered into doing something that
I don't know maybe contributes to a goal?
I keep thinking about the whole ancient tradition thing and how we haven't really heard anything else back on that
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I guess that'd track with the believing a lie until the end of trial thing.
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I don't know if that's the case for the others, though. If it were just a matter of believing a lie, that wouldn't explain why they refuse to speak.
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I have suspicions about the others.
You think it might have been the case for Molly's, too?
Just... some...
[well. she'll just let the message end there.]
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It's possible that this place influenced Caiman, but based off what I've heard of that case, it's equally possible that he acted independently.
I don't know which is better or worse, if either at all.
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Right.
Okay.
Well. At least we figured it out.
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Would you rather talk about something else?
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I just don't know what else to talk about. Looking for answers is the only thing that's made me feel any sort of sane for the past three days.
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Often, focusing everything on a goal is what keeps a person grounded.
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I guess I mostly just sent you a message to check on you.
I don't know if I can trust the four of you always, but I do like you guys, and I hate what's been done to you.
Doesn't sit right with me to just let you guys not have support, I guess.
You probably won't take me up on it and I'm not gonna force it but
If you need me for anything, if you need me to do something for you or someone to lean on, I'm around.
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You have enough to deal with.
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Half my friends have been forced to do terrible shit under the control of someone else, so you can probably see how this stuff really does not fucking sit right with me.
I wouldn't offer unless I thought I could handle it.
Like I said - I'm not going to force it, but I'm here.
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There are a lot of kind people here.
May you all never lose sight of that strength.