[ because they are the same brand of stupid and they suffer. "which" yes.
he hums a little and takes another bite of cake ]
Most animals can turn into those...zombie things he deals with, so that makes sense. [ ... ] What about you? There something you miss about home?
[ also for the record Anna he WILL bully Riku into getting his nails shittily painted I need this established before date auction if we don't get there ]
[LMAO WE'RE GETTING THERE don't get sidetracked by teenage feels zia. imagine getting your nails painted by a guy with one eye
As expect, he turns his head a bit away from Yamato, but unfortunately emotionshare week really gets him good. Guilt bubbles up, and beneath that, a hopeless sort of longing. He doesn't answer right away.]
...Being there with my friends. [...] It's been a long time since I've been back home.
yamato knows a bit about that, and he's not going to pry more of it out of Riku, but the guilt and longing make him pause. he nudges riku's shoulder with his own briefly ]
You'll get there. [ there's a quiet confidence there emotionally? wow! ] Even if you don't think you can, your friends will make sure you do.
[ he has a moment where he clearly looks (and feels.) like he's considering shoving riku's face in the cake, and instead he picks up the milk with a huff??? RUDE (he's clearly doing that thing with his tongue where you attempt to fix a teeth thing) ]
At least we've got toothbrushes here. [ grumbling a bit ] Anyway, I didn't come here just to steal Lalli's cake. I was serious about the nails, you know.
[ he says serious but that's definitely a mix of gremlin and nervous energy there?? ]
[ gremlin pleased and yet, also, sincere?? anyway he grabs his bag and takes out three shades of red, a black and then a very pretty blue and yellow?? he is bringing all of these back but Riku made him come here so he has to suffer, I guess. he also brought acetone so at least THATS something. ]
I lied, I've done it before, but I was fourteen and had both eyes, so. I don't think it'll help. [ there's a pang of affection? ] Taichi and I have a friend named Sora, too. Did he tell you that? She'd never been that into "girly" stuff, so I let her practice on me back when we were dating.
No. [But he doesn't sound mad he wasn't told, only curious. Sora and girl Sora. GOD. A Kairi named Sora. Okay, his head hurts.] Kairi's pretty girly. [Spoken like a true dumbass teenage boy who equates wearing pink dresses and being soft and caring = girly. Kairi has probably absolutely painted their nails also, I'm saying it, but I'm pretending not for this thread.] Sounds like Sora and Kairi need to hang out.
[THAT FEELS SO WEIRD TO SAY is the feelings he gives off.
His eyes drop to the nail polish. Seeing the red and yellow makes him feel nostalgic for some reason, but the black and blue pique his interest. Of course.
Also, I have to say there is a very weirdly embarrassed feeling radiating off of him when Yamato so casually talks about dating their shared girl friend. (meme voice) you guys are just out here dating?! It's the equivalent feeling to an embarrassed FOMO.]
Yeah. Weirded us out when you just said it as "Luke". [ kairi could only paint their nails post riku's stint with toxic masculinity after kh2 is what Ive decided. but yeah yamato's casual, but there's definitely a sense of confused amusement when he feels riku's embarrassed FOMO. loser...
The blue is for Riku later don't tell him. but he said he was testing colors on him so he will hold a hand out for his after opening up a red ]
She's got Taichi's sister and Mimi if she wants girly. [ HE has more than two friends, Riku, ] She'd practice on me because I had no idea what it was supposed to look like so I couldn't judge her, I'm pretty sure. And our other friends are kind of...
[ there's a fond, yet extremely judgmental beat ]
You've met Taichi. [ they're all losers. anyway, he'll explain himself. a bit: ] I'm trying to match the dye Beau used. I think I can move on from bandages soon, and if I'm going to look like an idiot with an eyepatch, I might as well try edgy on purpose.
[ if he's gonna be chuuni he's gonna look cool as a chuuni is the thought. ]
[i hate you ALSO STOP DON'T JUDGE HIM not talking about feelings is half their problem. or, like, a quarter of it.
He reaches out to give Yamato his hand. Sorry it's so calloused, but it's a strong hand. Everyone is going to tease me about giving you sexy Riku hand tags, BUT I'M BEING GENUINE HERE!! He doesn't know how to hold his hand to get the nails painted, though, so Yamato will have to do it.]
He did judge me pretty hard for wearing your band merch. [He glances up at the streak in Yamato's hair, then back down.] I don't think you'd look like an idiot.
[You'd look like Xigbar. Who is an idiot, so nevermind.]
I'm glad it was just your eye. Sora lost his heart once. And... his memories.
[ it's fine yamato's hand isn't nearly that calloused (Sword Wow) but it's not exactly soft, either. guitar strings are a bitch. he doesn't hesitate turning riku's hand around for his purpose or splaying it out. alpha week is so powerful he doesn't even feel shy holding a hot boy's hand, wow.
also this is platonic but I want people to make fun of you. there's a bit of-- just, wry fondness when Riku says he wouldn't look like an idiot? gay. and then Riku says that and never mind that's ?? ]
Memories... Like the way Taichi lost his last week? [ just clarifying so he can concentrate on the actual WHAT THE FUCK: ] What do you mean, he lost his heart?
Well, he wouldn't know a good band name if it hit him in the face.
[So there. He can be a bully to Taichi because Taichi has Sora energy, and he bullies Sora all the time.
Wow. Alpha Yamato.....]
Sort of. [He'd been casually watching Yamato's painting attempts, but his eyes lower under his lashes as he glances off.] It's... a long story.
When I told you about the raft... The three of us got separated when our world was consumed by darkness. I wanted to find and protect Kairi. I thought Sora had forgotten about her. [There's a lot of shame here bubbling up!] Turns out... Sora was the one protecting her all along. Her heart was inside him.
...I had gotten possessed by Ansem because I gave into the darkness. [Enjoy the guilt that's back.] After Sora beat him, he used Ansem's keyblade to unlock his own heart. Because he's a moron. [This sounds fond, though, like he knows Sora didn't have a lot of choice.] It released his and Kairi's hearts.
It made two Nobodies of them. Roxas and Naminé. Organization Thirteen was using Naminé to alter Sora's memories. But once some of the Organization was beaten, I helped her restore them. But... we needed Roxas because he wasn't complete. And... someone else... a girl... [There's confusion??] I can't... exactly remember her name. Xi...? [Haha.]
Anyway... I had to capture Roxas and put him in a digital world until Naminé was finished fixing Sora's memories in the pod.
[ attempts truly is the word for it as he switches between colors on riku's nails and makes a mess he has to clean up every time when he misses a stroke, but there's nothing to help him there considering his mounting confusion at the shit riku is saying.
he's not sure he understands the whole heart thing, or what a nobody is, or why that namine girl could alter memories? and who is I can't even make the who is xion joke i'm so upset die
anyway, he doesn't get a lot of it, but some stuff he does get. like sora sacrificing himself for a friend, or losing yourself to the darkness inside your heart. those are very ... familiar. as is a digital world, shocker. so despite all of that, there's still some kind of understanding laced with yamato's curiosity when he asks: ]
A digital world?
[ yes he has a bias, and also, it's easier than trying to ask what the hell riku was planning to do with the Nobody in that world. and what IS a nobody ]
Mm. It was a digital version of a place called Twilight Town. I was working with Naminé and a man named DiZ so I could make sure Sora was complete again. Who he was before.
We had to keep Roxas in the digital world so we could keep an eye on him. Otherwise... [Hm.] It might have been tougher to get him not to resist.
He thought he was his own person. He didn't know he was a part of Sora at first. Sora's Nobody. In a way, he was his own person. DiZ just thought Nobodies were empty shells. He hated them. He wanted me to get rid of Naminé, too. But... I didn't.
[ ... identity gets a bit weird in digimon! maybe not quite kh level, but yamato's thinking of some stuff. still, even just from that, yamato privately thinks it sounds like they were real people. ]
[Truly hate they converge on the same venn diagram.]
Nothing. Not really. [humble] The Organization tried to get Roxas, but it didn't work. Roxas and Sora joined again, and Sora woke up with Donald and Goofy. I... helped them here and there without them knowing who I was.
I didn't want them to find me because of how I looked... and what I had done to look that way.
The Organization wanted Sora so they could get... I don't know--power? existence?--from their Kingdom Hearts. They tried to use Kairi as leverage. But... everything worked out in the end. [A snort.] Of course it does. Sora always... just seems to know how to make it work.
Yeah, I know a guy like that, too. [ a little wry. a lot of what riku is sharing is kind of concerning, and kind of ... well. same hat, different shapes. ]
I tried to open a path for us, but... I couldn't. The King told me... I didn't belong in the darkness anymore. Instead, Naminé helped us. Everyone ran into the portal, but Sora and I didn't make it in time. There was still work for us to do, I guess.
We had to finish things. With Xemnas, the leader of Organization Thirteen. Even though we won... we still didn't have a way out. We walked until we came to the end. The shores of darkness.
And... I guess we accepted it. As long as it was the two of us together, we'd do it. We'd stay there and be the darkness. And then I was here. Without Sora.
[Hey, why the fuck did you make me type out a badly summarized KH plot HELLO]
Edited (imagine them talking until the dark shores) 2021-07-08 02:14 (UTC)
[ i didn't make you do shit riku just decided to spill his entire life story to yamato while yamato tested and removed a bunch of nail polish colors on him. he has decided he doesn't like any of the red ones and is doing some black now.
but.
"as long as it was the two of us together", huh? that's... there's something like a mix of fondness and empathic understanding, there, from yamato, because he thinks he'd have lost his mind if taichi wasn't here with him. ]
... Do you think it's true? The thing about time not passing back home.
[STOP he hasn't talked to the people he loves in, like, a year or more.]
I don't know. [It sounds genuine. The feelings radiating off him are a ball of earnest uncertainty. There's barely any optimism there. He's trying! He's just really fucking sad.] No matter what worlds we ever went to, time was always the same for us.
I hope it isn't. I don't want to think about Sora being there alone and knowing I'm gone.
[ yamato looks at riku's face at that. even if he didn't look concerned, it'd be easy to feel it coming off of him ]
Time in the Digital World was different from ours at first. One day there was a minute in ours. [ he's not looking at what he's doing and spills a bit of polish. enjoy that vague frustration as he looks back down to wipe it, but it's completely eclipsed by how he sincerely seems to believe what he says next: ] I think if time was passing back home, the others would've found a way to reach us. ...Sora would've found you, too. It's like you said-- he always finds a way to make it happen, right?
[For a second, he doesn't move because he doesn't want to be the cause of more spilling, but he finally reaches out with his other hand to help Yamato.
Mostly by pushing Yamato's hand away so he can do it instead. In a "don't worry about it" way.]
You're right. He does, but... he's not the brightest sometimes. [(affectionate)] I wouldn't doubt it'd take him a year or two to be able to get here. He'd probably get lost.
[(a lot affectionate) But more seriously:]
You're right. Our friends would have found us by now if time was still moving there.
[ there is maybe a flash of something bitterly defensive when riku does that, but it doesn't last long before he seems amused at the (affectionate) bits instead. ]
It'd take him a year or two, but he'd still get there right on time anyway, right? [ like some other idiot he knows. and since riku seems reassured, he won't harp on the friend thing!!! ]
[Fond... But also a little TCH about the idea of it. Taichi and Taichi 2.0 types really out here getting on his nerves somehow managing to just do stuff every time.]
We'll get back, Yamato. [...] I can promise you that. Because I won't stop until we do.
[ he is!!!! damn!!! he's just pouty about it!!!! ]
Yeah. I won't either. [ but there's fondness at riku trying to reassure him. and the feeling of friendship. "friendship isn't a feeling" it is now. ] So long as there's something we can do, we'll keep going.
[ and he means that, and he's sincere, but there's definitely a little exhaustion and uhhhh big sads behind those feelings. it's fine! it's fine. ]
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he hums a little and takes another bite of cake ]
Most animals can turn into those...zombie things he deals with, so that makes sense. [ ... ] What about you? There something you miss about home?
[ also for the record Anna he WILL bully Riku into getting his nails shittily painted I need this established before date auction if we don't get there ]
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As expect, he turns his head a bit away from Yamato, but unfortunately emotionshare week really gets him good. Guilt bubbles up, and beneath that, a hopeless sort of longing. He doesn't answer right away.]
...Being there with my friends. [...] It's been a long time since I've been back home.
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yamato knows a bit about that, and he's not going to pry more of it out of Riku, but the guilt and longing make him pause. he nudges riku's shoulder with his own briefly ]
You'll get there. [ there's a quiet confidence there emotionally? wow! ] Even if you don't think you can, your friends will make sure you do.
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Not because of Yamato, but because there's some kind of hopelessness lodged in his heart. Him and Sora... stuck in the darkness. It's fine.
Then, quickly, a wash of gremlin energy and amusement masks it. He starts smirking at Yamato.]
...You should see your teeth right now.
[Haha, that chocolate cake.]
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At least we've got toothbrushes here. [ grumbling a bit ] Anyway, I didn't come here just to steal Lalli's cake. I was serious about the nails, you know.
[ he says serious but that's definitely a mix of gremlin and nervous energy there?? ]
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It fades into a subtle but lingering amusement. And some uncertain curiosity. He's "thinking" for a long moment.]
Fine. You're lucky we're friends.
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[ gremlin pleased and yet, also, sincere?? anyway he grabs his bag and takes out three shades of red, a black and then a very pretty blue and yellow?? he is bringing all of these back but Riku made him come here so he has to suffer, I guess. he also brought acetone so at least THATS something. ]
I lied, I've done it before, but I was fourteen and had both eyes, so. I don't think it'll help. [ there's a pang of affection? ] Taichi and I have a friend named Sora, too. Did he tell you that? She'd never been that into "girly" stuff, so I let her practice on me back when we were dating.
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[THAT FEELS SO WEIRD TO SAY is the feelings he gives off.
His eyes drop to the nail polish. Seeing the red and yellow makes him feel nostalgic for some reason, but the black and blue pique his interest. Of course.
Also, I have to say there is a very weirdly embarrassed feeling radiating off of him when Yamato so casually talks about dating their shared girl friend. (meme voice) you guys are just out here dating?! It's the equivalent feeling to an embarrassed FOMO.]
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The blue is for Riku later don't tell him. but he said he was testing colors on him so he will hold a hand out for his after opening up a red ]
She's got Taichi's sister and Mimi if she wants girly. [ HE has more than two friends, Riku, ] She'd practice on me because I had no idea what it was supposed to look like so I couldn't judge her, I'm pretty sure. And our other friends are kind of...
[ there's a fond, yet extremely judgmental beat ]
You've met Taichi. [ they're all losers. anyway, he'll explain himself. a bit: ] I'm trying to match the dye Beau used. I think I can move on from bandages soon, and if I'm going to look like an idiot with an eyepatch, I might as well try edgy on purpose.
[ if he's gonna be chuuni he's gonna look cool as a chuuni is the thought. ]
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He reaches out to give Yamato his hand. Sorry it's so calloused, but it's a strong hand. Everyone is going to tease me about giving you sexy Riku hand tags, BUT I'M BEING GENUINE HERE!! He doesn't know how to hold his hand to get the nails painted, though, so Yamato will have to do it.]
He did judge me pretty hard for wearing your band merch. [He glances up at the streak in Yamato's hair, then back down.] I don't think you'd look like an idiot.
[You'd look like Xigbar. Who is an idiot, so nevermind.]
I'm glad it was just your eye. Sora lost his heart once. And... his memories.
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[ it's fine yamato's hand isn't nearly that calloused (Sword Wow) but it's not exactly soft, either. guitar strings are a bitch. he doesn't hesitate turning riku's hand around for his purpose or splaying it out. alpha week is so powerful he doesn't even feel shy holding a hot boy's hand, wow.
also this is platonic but I want people to make fun of you. there's a bit of-- just, wry fondness when Riku says he wouldn't look like an idiot? gay. and then Riku says that and never mind that's ?? ]
Memories... Like the way Taichi lost his last week? [ just clarifying so he can concentrate on the actual WHAT THE FUCK: ] What do you mean, he lost his heart?
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[So there. He can be a bully to Taichi because Taichi has Sora energy, and he bullies Sora all the time.
Wow. Alpha Yamato.....]
Sort of. [He'd been casually watching Yamato's painting attempts, but his eyes lower under his lashes as he glances off.] It's... a long story.
When I told you about the raft... The three of us got separated when our world was consumed by darkness. I wanted to find and protect Kairi. I thought Sora had forgotten about her. [There's a lot of shame here bubbling up!] Turns out... Sora was the one protecting her all along. Her heart was inside him.
...I had gotten possessed by Ansem because I gave into the darkness. [Enjoy the guilt that's back.] After Sora beat him, he used Ansem's keyblade to unlock his own heart. Because he's a moron. [This sounds fond, though, like he knows Sora didn't have a lot of choice.] It released his and Kairi's hearts.
It made two Nobodies of them. Roxas and Naminé. Organization Thirteen was using Naminé to alter Sora's memories. But once some of the Organization was beaten, I helped her restore them. But... we needed Roxas because he wasn't complete. And... someone else... a girl... [There's confusion??] I can't... exactly remember her name. Xi...? [Haha.]
Anyway... I had to capture Roxas and put him in a digital world until Naminé was finished fixing Sora's memories in the pod.
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he's not sure he understands the whole heart thing, or what a nobody is, or why that namine girl could alter memories? and who is I can't even make the who is xion joke i'm so upset die
anyway, he doesn't get a lot of it, but some stuff he does get. like sora sacrificing himself for a friend, or losing yourself to the darkness inside your heart. those are very ... familiar. as is a digital world, shocker. so despite all of that, there's still some kind of understanding laced with yamato's curiosity when he asks: ]
A digital world?
[ yes he has a bias, and also, it's easier than trying to ask what the hell riku was planning to do with the Nobody in that world. and what IS a nobody ]
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We had to keep Roxas in the digital world so we could keep an eye on him. Otherwise... [Hm.] It might have been tougher to get him not to resist.
He thought he was his own person. He didn't know he was a part of Sora at first. Sora's Nobody. In a way, he was his own person. DiZ just thought Nobodies were empty shells. He hated them. He wanted me to get rid of Naminé, too. But... I didn't.
Naminé and Roxas... I couldn't.
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So what did you do?
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Nothing. Not really. [humble] The Organization tried to get Roxas, but it didn't work. Roxas and Sora joined again, and Sora woke up with Donald and Goofy. I... helped them here and there without them knowing who I was.
I didn't want them to find me because of how I looked... and what I had done to look that way.
The Organization wanted Sora so they could get... I don't know--power? existence?--from their Kingdom Hearts. They tried to use Kairi as leverage. But... everything worked out in the end. [A snort.] Of course it does. Sora always... just seems to know how to make it work.
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So how did you guys end up stuck in the darkness?
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I tried to open a path for us, but... I couldn't. The King told me... I didn't belong in the darkness anymore. Instead, Naminé helped us. Everyone ran into the portal, but Sora and I didn't make it in time. There was still work for us to do, I guess.
We had to finish things. With Xemnas, the leader of Organization Thirteen. Even though we won... we still didn't have a way out. We walked until we came to the end. The shores of darkness.
And... I guess we accepted it. As long as it was the two of us together, we'd do it. We'd stay there and be the darkness. And then I was here. Without Sora.
[Hey, why the fuck did you make me type out a badly summarized KH plot HELLO]
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but.
"as long as it was the two of us together", huh? that's... there's something like a mix of fondness and empathic understanding, there, from yamato, because he thinks he'd have lost his mind if taichi wasn't here with him. ]
... Do you think it's true? The thing about time not passing back home.
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I don't know. [It sounds genuine. The feelings radiating off him are a ball of earnest uncertainty. There's barely any optimism there. He's trying! He's just really fucking sad.] No matter what worlds we ever went to, time was always the same for us.
I hope it isn't. I don't want to think about Sora being there alone and knowing I'm gone.
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Time in the Digital World was different from ours at first. One day there was a minute in ours. [ he's not looking at what he's doing and spills a bit of polish. enjoy that vague frustration as he looks back down to wipe it, but it's completely eclipsed by how he sincerely seems to believe what he says next: ] I think if time was passing back home, the others would've found a way to reach us. ...Sora would've found you, too. It's like you said-- he always finds a way to make it happen, right?
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Mostly by pushing Yamato's hand away so he can do it instead. In a "don't worry about it" way.]
You're right. He does, but... he's not the brightest sometimes. [(affectionate)] I wouldn't doubt it'd take him a year or two to be able to get here. He'd probably get lost.
[(a lot affectionate) But more seriously:]
You're right. Our friends would have found us by now if time was still moving there.
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It'd take him a year or two, but he'd still get there right on time anyway, right? [ like some other idiot he knows. and since riku seems reassured, he won't harp on the friend thing!!! ]
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...Yeah. As much as it ticks me off.
[Fond... But also a little TCH about the idea of it. Taichi and Taichi 2.0 types really out here getting on his nerves somehow managing to just do stuff every time.]
We'll get back, Yamato. [...] I can promise you that. Because I won't stop until we do.
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Yeah. I won't either. [ but there's fondness at riku trying to reassure him. and the feeling of friendship. "friendship isn't a feeling" it is now. ] So long as there's something we can do, we'll keep going.
[ and he means that, and he's sincere, but there's definitely a little exhaustion and uhhhh big sads behind those feelings. it's fine! it's fine. ]
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